Mira-cles!

2011-11-18T15:13:00.002+08:00

It's finally after o levels,can relax le!

things recently are..well.not so good.

hurting even more,i dont know why.I dont know if he's trying to avoid me or this issue between us,or he hates me.i really have no idea.I wish he'd talk to me,At least i know what is happening.
Why does it hurt so much?
i keep telling myself i can do this,i can live everyday normally,trying to stand up after the fall,gradually becoming independent.But everytime i have the opportunity or the probability of meeting him,i'll look forward to it.
i finally know what is meant by hurts like a knife.

I really want to talk to him..i miss him.
But i can't be the first to talk to him,because i don't know how much i mean,to him.Like,dirt or smth.
i feel weak always having to depend on people around me for comfort,i dont use to be like this.and i hate the way i am now.like, a lost soul.I seriously am very helpless.can't do anything.
I'm just waiting and waiting...everyday ,no matter something big or small happens,it seems like nothing happens at all.I cant seem to remember things anymore.but everytime i think of him,memories are clear as water.

it's been 2 days since the end of O levels...
Starfish...

2011-08-03T09:24:00.002+08:00

Hey.
nobody's visiting anymore,thankfully.
July's been a sad,disappointing month,though it's my birthday.
turning 16 is really a big step.and on that day,i cried and laughed.cried horribly,laughed happily.ironic huh.the day when i realised that i had to be dependent on myself,or the day that i learned i had many people around me whom i cannot afford to lose.
but,since young,i've learnt that there will be one day when these will end.just like primary school.Remember?How you survived everything?and got into a good school?finally,you can sneer at those who did that to you.When you were young.
But in secondary school,i didnt think that i would go through as much though not more or less.It was different.

Now,its time for the grand finale again.i dont have faith anymore.
When a guy you've always believed in start hiding things from you,what do you do?
When a guy you've always depended on tells you ,he wont be there anymore,what can i do?
When the guy that you're totally crazy for demands more and more,what do you do?

Inflexible and possesive,these 2 words i'll remember forever.
Everything i do,of which concerns him,must be thought thoroughly and carefully.whether i annoy him?
whether he'll get angry?
whether he'll feel restricted.

Fine,then.
sometimes,i feel that i'm losing myself.Changing and changing.Maturing is a different thing,but i really want my happy self ack.i want the days when i can be so happy with him back.
What exactly happened ?i don't know.Sorry's really a meaningless word.stop using sorry and love so flippantly please.it doent mean anything when you dont mean them.They are just alphabets with superficial meaning.

when you say that,do you know that the first thing i think of,is"really,you do?"i wont reply you the same,beacuse i dont want to lie.I do love you,but what is love,when you've lost hope in it.
WH told me to believe init ,YT told me to not lose hope if i love him,but,ultimately,have he seen that?

I still remember,princess diaries,Her date asked Mia,Why choose me?She said'"Becuase you saw me when i was invisible"
Maybe,i should continue looking for the guy who saw me when i was invisible,and not someone whom i go pursuing for.Sometimes i doubtful.Does he reallylove me?After all,what have he done,to win me there?
Look at JT and Beat,yep you'll get what i mean.
Look at YT and WJ.Look at ben and jamie.

Hearts of the doors shut closed,never will it open for anyone again.

2011-06-19T17:44:00.002+08:00

It's,exactly 7 days to prelims,not fully prepared yea i know but at least it's better than sinking myself into depression.which i did when i broke down a few days ago.some counselling from huiqi..
SURROUND MYSELF WITH POSITIVE EMOTIONS:DDDD

haiz.so.been chionging a lot.i really hope i'll make it for o levels.7 points,thats the lowest of ngee ann.must be ther best first.

but,haiz.sometimes,it just gets boringnnnnnnn zzzz.

and even more demoralising.

2011-05-29T22:58:00.003+08:00

dear diary,
recently feels so stressed,like everything's crashing down on me.
borke,helpless and always in a temperamental mood.
i really didnt mean it ,trust me.
But i just dont get why people like to pass rumours and all,and even if they knew,what's the point of spreading it?Isnt it just for some gossip session only?is it really so fun,when something like that gets into the ears of the teachers and my parents?Really?

And you.i have no reason to blame you ,cuz i dun want you to blame me when you cant get a good score for hwachong.but do you really have to do this?Cant you like,leave me an sms before you totally mia?do you know,that i keep waiting ,for you,but for nothing?im really starting to have doubts now.

and this stupid o levels stress,the more i tell myself i need to focus and study,the more i cant.and pressure comes more from super hardworking people like huiqi etc.even though she's already far better than me.

for a even worse time,i cant do roller blading,i feel out of place,when im with zoey beatrice and star.they feel more like a family and me,like an intruder.which doesnt really belong anywhere,in the first place.

Life's screwed.can i have a screwdriver to unscrew my life please thank you.

2011-02-14T14:44:00.002+08:00

theair's filled with loveeeeeeeeee!!
btw,it's valtns day,the reason why it's a happy day..
not to mention the huge amount,okay.not latger than the previous year,but ya still it's a whole lots of goodies!!:DDand also,a big big bigcarebear!!:DDDD
it's the first time ever someone has given me sucha big gift,of cours im elated,duh....starting to think that the gif i bought was very smallllllllll,bu oh wells,love cnt be measured in sizes one right?and plus it's the first valentine.....

yea,the class was making a hoo ha outof it,but haha..that's valentines' day!
wish sixiu and solo,xuanyu and yunjin,qinyin and jeremy,the best of luck!!

2011-01-04T20:55:00.002+08:00

HEY!!haha i don't think anyone's ever come to this blog anymore...
anyway..it's 2011,a brand new year here,and today's the first day of school...
i decided to come and post!!!since i havent touched this for such a long timeee
anyway,love life is quite okayyy
studies not quite,this year must buck up a lot le!!!!o levels,hope i'll do well!!!
i'm trying to live by this :
be yourself,be happy

i hate myself in sec 1 and 2,wearing that mask over me,trying to act like someone i'm not to be popular or well liked.decided to change,and just be myself:Deverybody has flaws,but everyone has their good points too,and i want people to like me for who i am and not for someone i act to be:D
i want to be truthful and honest to myself and live a life of my own:DDi've met lots of people,made lots of friends throughout various events,and i'm happy with my life,except for studies.for now,my goal would be to pass all subjects of o levels,and get into a poly.once dreamnt of jc,but turned out i found that i din have the potential,and would be better if i can do something that has my interests in instead of doing everything all over again...
anyway,first day of school,and 402 is on the outskirts of town,while im assigned a seat at the back door.told ms tan i couldnt see,she told me to go get glasses....LOL my eyesight is perfect?!
haiz,everything has its bad and good side zzz....accept what you're given:D

I LOVE STARFISHHH!!!

2010-04-07T22:33:00.000+08:00

i'm all so sianed by my life.recently started a diary,so i'm blogging lesser.

2010-04-04T15:31:00.002+08:00

haha things have been going quite well recently
went to taiwan,came back
got lovesick.
i miss taiwan so much
and im going to uk like in june!!!!!!
omg omg omg
its like so ex there but i shall eat the provided meals to my fill!
and must improve my english by a lot sia
be billingual
anywa
im aiming for taiwan uni as my lifetime goal
i love it there\
and im good in chinese
so i can go there and jing xiu!!!
woots!

2010-03-09T19:45:00.004+08:00

today was quite fun yea.in the morning learned how to pinch people from william.then use lionel as guinea pig HAHAHAHA.then durinh morning assembly cai lao shi gave out our exam scriots.OMIGOD manz.18/70.even si xiu can get 32.5 la wthhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.was quite emo cuz i really did studied for it lehhhhh.

then first period was clit.stayed in class do graph corrections.then fire alarm go field etc.so waste time lor.cant they do it during one of the emaths period zzz.anyway,went down for recess.din feel like eating anything so just bought a packet of guava and chocolate milkcurd.very nice:DDDDDthen went up again.

hcl what the hell mr kieu say never receive my zuo wen 2 what the hell i did that zuo wen with a lot of effort sia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!all the words from the ke wen i tried to use le then also tried to write as good as i could then tell me he never receive wth?!!!!!!!!!its effort okay!then after hcl was bio.was chatting with yunjin all the way,talking about horoscope compatibility:DD.at this rate i sure going fail bio de la.CANNOT.then lunch went down to eat with yunjin.now felt like eating so ate shirataki noodles and mushroom soup.then saw qianling holding the class tee!chionged up to see its quite nice la but i find it a bit plain.

then chem.chionged filing cuz had to go for the taiwan trip thingy.chionged all the way.then went down with limin to the staff room cuz she wanted to put something.tried to find mr kieu to get my hcl ans sheet but he wasn't there also.zzz.then went up ava room to wait for mr wong.always late.zzz.then saw Meng Yeow going for the career talk .so qiao.

then went to classroom 206 for the talk cuz ava was used for the career thingy.then Mr wong said a lot of stuffs.yay im so going to have a whale of my time there!buy lots of things also:DDDDD.he appointed me as room leader.i duwan change room le!can 12.30 then sleep le if i leader hahahaha.

then went to com lab with limin yunjin to watch the departure movie.was tearing a bit only la.din cry as much cuz i watching for a second time le.lol.go taiwan still must watch again......

anyway im really excited about the trip!!!although i'll miss a lot of remedials,i think this trip is totally worth it.

tml is road run le.station master haiz.duno if thats a good or a bad thing la.and duno whether to run anot.dun feel like it.chey.

2010-03-08T23:19:00.003+08:00

k.today was busy.actually everyday also lidat de la.anyw,the classes were boring and i just couldnt get logarithm into my head.errgggghhhh.luckily got hejin's help else my brain burst le.speaking of which he today weird weird de suddenly become so nice.classes were so boring.chiong compre during malay.

recess went to eat and forgot all abt money claiming.so went during lunch with limin.got my $41.18 backkkk.so much money at one time a bit scary.weix and yewheng were scolded by one very old auntie.she was like practically screaming la.duno wad thing they do.laughing somemore so i guess it shouldnt be too serious ba.aiya.anyw,went back to class and organised my things.

anyway after sch went for career week volunteering.quite jing zhang la.then keep saying wrong words.but in the end it was okay le.encik also got come sia.i was doing the formal letter at the back><

after that went back to class,pack bag.then found qianling's wallet and handphone on a table.shock dao then quickly wan inform her but dunno where she go.then me and yunjin went to lot 1 to buy stuff.went to long john silvers to eat:DDand saw a pregnant fries which in the end unfortunately went into ynjin's stomach.sorry fries.anyway who asked you to be ther in the first place.and chatted a lot while eating.then went mini toons buy present for anqi:DD.bought a starry shoelace.and gummies and marshmallows!

then me and yunjin walked around trying to find This Fashion.but dun have lehhhh.then while walking saw gary xiaoyi and a few other tall tall guys.Then gary was like:

eh?i think i know you leh...wait your name iss.....lj one i remember cuz it sounds like lanjiao then i was like wth?!!!!no no no wait wait its jl ahhh jl ya..then i said bye then like walk a few short distance then he said jiale right?i was like wthhhh again then corrected him "jiaNle".then walked separate ways lor.eeks his hair like very weird liao and xiaoyi is always wearing pink.last time saw him at lib also pink.but still it was quite a good feeling to see seniors in shopping centres:DD

then we walked around again looking for belts.then saw them like what another 2 3 times.but just walk past lor.then finally found one shop that had belts under $10,which was yunjin's budget.she bought a beautiful white one for $6!!!omg how i wished i bought that black de.but too bad lor.i not so rich.anyw,walked for a while again and went to the MRT station.

went back home the mrt damn squeezy and somebody's perfume was so strong i almost fainted sia.i dun understand whats so great about perfumes anyway.then went back home shower and chionged to tuition.not bad la.finished the wksht le.

and it felt really good to be able to cycle again,feel like the wind.so carefree.and can exercise also:DDchionged a few hw and took a break aand here i am:DD

2010-03-05T23:40:00.002+08:00

my god.today had nosebleed during e maths.chao ji sia suay i was like doing the graph sketching then suddenly felt something flowing down my nose then xia dao.luckily never drip lor.just put my head into the neck breaking posture and chionged to the toilet let it flow.OMG manz.whats wrong with me.i hope its just the heat of the body.

then had headache.not because of the blood i think.duno why la.veh stressed.did a lot of things.but for me its just as usual.and i din complete even 1 hw.then during eng the ms tan thought i tying hair.i doing the eng wksht then headache ma.so i put my hand on my forehead then she suddenly walked over and said,can you stop tying your hair?i was like"HUH?"

then iris explained she thought i was qianling,who was the one tying her hair.Qian le and Jian Le.got a big difference sia LOLLLLL.anyw.met the mrs christine lam after school for the career week briefing.then go find ms wassan get key for the leaders room.YESHHH we are so going to write proposal for us to use that room!!so nice so comfy!!!!!!!!!!!somemore beside the counselling room!!CAREFORCE FTW manz.

today benedict like guai guai de.in the morning i was telling sixiu that i cant make it for clit cuz i need type in database aft school.then he was like:wah give up clit for careforce ah.then i was like.clit on presentation wad,that one memorise can liao.basically,clit is all about MEMORISING.and duno la.benedict seems veh irritated with me.

anyw.spent the time in the leaders room with yuwan and limin to type in the databse.then was gossiping around also.then eating also.duno ahd how many marshmallows and drumlet and wings le.hahaha at the rate im eating im so gonna grow fat.

anyw.saw HIM today.was so happy!

my headache is still not going away.oh dear~

2010-02-28T23:01:00.002+08:00

k this is my new blogskin:DD
looks kinda nice.
wanted to use black de but couldnt find one that was to my liking
esp of sunset.
anyw,its almost the end of commons and im like memorising clit furiously.
the information is like taxing!
wondered how char managed to memorise last time.
i like going die le
careforce induction on 4 mar
taiwan trip from 12 mar to 18 mar!
jacket jacket jacket
taiwan taiwan taiwan
woots!
anyw,im so inspired by titanic!
its like omg!!!damn good!
i was crying throughout the part where rose and jack were going to be separated.
jack is so smart man
and rose very chio
but still jack died.
but the good part was rose married him in the end la.
in her dreams.
i think she died.
omg!when they were in the water then the things jack said to rose really made my tears flow alot.non stop de.tragic love story.the part 2 of the movie was really touching.
the director and producer plus all the crew deserved the Oscar award.totally!
im still OMG-ing over the movie.
its a bit cliche,but thats me
im quite emotional.
even while watching new moon at westmall with khiayi and char
i cried too.my god.

2010-02-16T23:39:00.003+08:00

okie.CNYYYYYY!!!!
shall talk abt my fanta bulous cny adventure

so 13 feb.
early in the morning wake up at like wad 5 am?!
then dressed,packed and chionged to custom.then reached malaysia,go holiday plaza take mum's specs plus go see new clothes.i still got 2 shirts left to buy.then go macs eat omgggg the chicken porridge was sooooo nice!then went yong tai and bought 2 shirts,1 red 1 white:DD.then after that went to a ma's house ,then went to kota tinggi.yea.then do da sao chu:DDD.i wipe the glass of the doors siao got damn lots of dust there sia!then climb up climb down the ladder,wipe here wipe there.then after that go vacuum the house,then paste the tiger thingy on the wall.then go wash car:DDwash until i like wad luo tang ji.then a di splashed me with damn lots of water and ta da,water fight.then bathe then went for tuan yuan fan.its was at the da zhong restaurant,then waited for big uncle to come,then they say jam,turn back not coming le.sad.then after that we da-baoed one tables food and shifted to two tables so as to save space.then eat eat eat.first one was fish maw wrapped with siew mai,then chicken in yellow wine,then fo ben tiao xiang,the yam bowl then inside got lots of stuff.then hong kong style steamed fish,then yee mian,then yusheng:DDD.then longan sweet soup:DDD. then lao-ed yusheng:DD i was like zihigh de lor.zzz.then eat le went back home,sleep:DD.okay thats the end for eve of cny!

2010-02-12T23:17:00.004+08:00

That's the thing about love and romance—no one can predict where it will take you. Love will fill your heart, break your heart and then heal the heart that's broken.

today is valentine's day cum CNY celebrations.had lessons and exchanging gifts in the morning,then e maths.fail by 2 marks.two again.hmmm.seems like thats my unlucky number.Then after that gave gifts to YH and QY:DDD.then took ms chian mega card and went down to lau yusheng.beng kang's father damn good de leh.the yusheng lau until very luan then hejin was like"people please be civilized"but nobody care lol.then eat eat eat.not bad leh:DDDthen cleaned up and went up the hall for celebration.the card a bit zho teng.not bad la.norman's fake hair dropped off then a bit not xiang.but i was most impressed by the sec 3 dance group and BEELENG and MINGYUAN!!!!!they totally rock man!beeleng is such an experienced senior.must learn more from her:DDD

then after that went to the back of the hall find char.she was hugging a ms sunshine pillow!!!i also wantttttt.then me dongyan and her we went up to find ms chian and gave her the card:DDDDshe looked so surprised.then went up class give char her bdae present!a bracelet with dolphins and hearts and bells!!!!!!very ex de k.

then went to find jiajia they all to go down bao dumplings.then yafei say we like a bit extra within the prc scholars then their seniors also coming bk so we like ge ge bu ru.so they want go macs then mum tell me go back home earlier can go buy new clothes:DDDcalled dad and he came to zai me and sis.on the way dropped uncle chandrew at the keppel shipyard then went to auntie lilian's house,cuz dad need get the fishtank from her.in our school u.very weird.

her house damn big sia at west coast there.then she like very busy but chatted with us for a while.and gave us drinks:DDDDDD.then we went back home.did some hw,then had a short nap,then dinner.Then we went to the duno where buy new clothes!!!!!!bought a black above-knee skirt,i got no choice,then a pair of black shorts,plus the vest and black jeans plus the blue blouse.left a green shirt and white shirt to buy:DD.not bad.but this year a bit conservative as compared to last year.

very tiring,going in and out of the changing rooms.then some of the sizes damn weird de!zzz.and i haven't buy a necklace.aiya.not planning to buy le.i like my present one:DDDD.so,i tml going malaysia le.sianz.but all my relatives in malaysia wad can i do lor.and this year confirm not a fun de ,cuz of some things.but confirmed:got bombs!!!!yes can play with them again!!!!im looking forward to the fireworks also!!!!woots!and angpaos too:DDD.hope i get many many this year:DDD

but must take note of the things i eat le.cannot eat so much else later uni cannot wear.lol.

2010-02-09T00:24:00.002+08:00

today was preetty normal.the same thing as usual,what can i say?found only love by trademark,its already an old song.got loads of homework,and tuition got one sec 4 gal and a sec 3 guy join.why cant it be the opposite zzz.anyw,forgot to bring a maths tb home shitz.class dinner i want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!taylor swift-you belong with me:DD

2010-02-05T21:05:00.006+08:00

okay.so have been taking some zi lian zhao.cuz william today taught me that my phone can do all this,and i din even know that!!!!omigosh how sua gu am i manz.so took with mei at home lor.

anyway,today was quite okay.Early in the morning got gang-ed by lionel richie cassandra and even norman.zzz.then went to parade square for morning assembly lor.then veh cramp.was so lucky that ****** din sit beside me.HENG.then turned out i was between benedict and enjie.it is a bad formation.so cramped.i rather go back the last time de lor.

then first period was HCL.had test.wth la.at the find the wrong words section lost like 4 marks.FFFF.and why din i notice that?!!!!just right in front of me somemore.what the.then PE.had volleyball.zzz.yunjin and me are volleyball idiots.i duno how to serve!i think i do better at netball bball and captain ball:DDD.

then it was e maths.we were eating chips ahoy underneath out tables and hejin was giving out the meiji strawberry choco.OMG.bery nice!!!haha then recess went down to eat with charlene and doreen.then mr mun catch my fbt,make me go up change again.zzz.ran up,change then ran down.chionged through my food.

then etc subj luh.met a few cf members during lunch to brief them abt their roles in careforce recruitment programme 2010!chao ji look forward to it de!OVERALL I/C!!woots! first time sia.must do good good.:DDDD

then aft school le.mr kieu told us abt the taiwan trip!!!!during 12 mar to 19 mar.will miss the NCO camp and NCC march girls camp.but nvm.i am so not going to give up a once in a life chance to go for a camp.never.immediately go sign up.haha.then chionged for c lit class test.wth damn hard de leh!all the things i memorise duno go where le.then my hands like kena break le...write so much..3 gao zhi sia

then went to classroom,discuss debate.with hejin and qianling.quite okay la.but discussing now lor.anyw tml going NUS Yusof Ishak House for the chinese debate competition.wish everything goes well.i am crossing my fingers.cuz i heard that the jia jing going debate for laysiew group.jin zhang sia.

I WANNA GO CLASS DINNER!!!!!!!!!!WHY I MONDAY GOT TUITION.........ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ..............I WANT EAT SEAFOOD LUHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

2010-02-05T00:02:00.002+08:00

okie.today.had a lot.of TECHNICAL PROBLEMS!!!!!!
so went to class right in the morning.then had cep.talk abt new year.then after that had e geog test.din get to finish last question sia.WTF.then bio.left at 1000 for assembly.chiong-ed down to eat.then realize nvr bring Q cards.then went up and went down again.then went to hall,lian xi abit.then start le.then i was like damn nervous sia!!!!can actualy feel the pumping of blood in my veins!

then once i stepped on stage,a lot of technical problems.1.huixin's wired mic din get connected or smth wrong was wif it.2.my mic was too loud!!!damn i din raise my voice sia.suddenly very amplified.then huixin's mike too soft.wth.can obviously see the contrast.

3.the mic was damn loud,so they turned the volume down.became too soft.i cant even hear wad i am speaking.so i was not very hyper la,like rehearsal in the chinese department room yesterday.4.when we were singing a bit too long sia.should've stopped at the end of the first line.XIA SUAY!!!!!

alot of things went wrong luh.haiz.and the sec 4s were in front.OMIGOSH.all the seniors in front then very scary.then benny ng was like very bu nai fan.zzz.sian diaoz.they sing the song the mic also screw screw screw.can the infocomn change mics???

but the song is niceeee.qianyu is a pro.then chionged to a maths test.wabiang.got a lot of questions i not sure sia.scary.then after that finally lunch,went with william and sac go see ms wassan for careforce recruitment!a lot of things to do!!!!!

then c lit.free period,din feel like doing homework or studying.i've had enough.this is my life,i am going to live it the way i want it to be.so i played tap tap revenge with Priscilla iTouch.very fun!!!then aft school went with yiting to see vp pang.gave us a sheet of paper tell us nominate mr kieu for the OYEA award.woah.need find evidence.but i shall not write until too good later he also kena transferred to dunman then another not-so-good school teacher come replace.

anyway,ms chian's bdae is coming,and im thinking of making the cards on corrogated boards.
not a bad idea la.today studying for c lit and hcl.hope everything goes well tml.im crossing my fingers.

2010-01-31T21:27:00.002+08:00

2010-01-31T21:18:00.002+08:00

this is such a good day.went for chinese debating also.saw yuxuan on the MRT at woodlands.he was going for church at commonwealth.a bit far sia.then we chatted lor.

then reached and no one was in sight.then everyone made it except for anqi and yingshuang.then after we reached anqi said she was lost!shocked tio.hejin IMMEDIATELY go find her.but aft that she found her way.lol.yingshuang was not feeling well so she never come.then talk then tao3 lun4.then lunch!!!!then talk again,then discussion.not bad la.but we like having picnic under the tables.hahaha.

anyway i' ve,like weeleong,fallen in love with Wedding Dress by Taeyang.especially the MV.and i just watch the jia1 men2 de4 rong2 guang1.cried of course,so touching.next i'm putting on a vid of the Wedding Dress MV.

tml ss test.must go study le!else i die.

PEACE.

2010-01-30T22:11:00.002+08:00

went to chinese debate today.went to buona vista at 8.20.woah.damn early sia.nobody there.then yingshuang came.then yafei.then we go walk around lor.lol.then came back to wait for the other people,saw wei wen from commonwealth.haha.was really nice to see friends from other school.

coincidentally,she was also going for the debate.good lor!anyway,after waiting for benny ng and the rest,we chit chatted.and walked to the bus station.then took 95,went to NUS lecture theatre block.then registered and went in

wah.no space le lor.then we just sit and listen abt the talk lor.then went out to practice.then i was the proposition for my topic.and did some lang3 du2.

then went back,then lunch!was yummy!!!! we went up to the second floor,eat at the long table.then i help anqi finish the chicken wing.yay.then after that talk again,but this time need do fan bo.our trainer was a shuai shuai de><.then tea!got nuggets chocotart and siew mai.then hejin went up to present.not bad.lol.then after that was another talk.mum and dad contacted me tell me meet them at ichiban at JP.i reached there like very late le lor.so duwan.at first want to go imm eat with anqi qianling priscilla hejin de,but mum duwan let.dabao-ed for me.quite okay la the food.

then after the talk they arranged the teams for the chinese debate.me and qianling and hejin in one group.quite okay also except for the fact that hejin keep koking me on the head!zzz.then dad fetched me at Je mrt station.

tml still have.oh god,how am i supposed to memorise c lit and ss?!!and chem also!!!shit.

2010-01-29T21:54:00.003+08:00

haiz.been very very stressed lately.duno wads wrong.i've not been doing what i like,but i ahve not been doing what i need to do either.theres a lot of homework,and theres a lot of test.if i dunt memorise,i will have hard time.

anyway,chinese lit is really really difficult.i've been having images of really pretty images.in other europe countries.

and.i din get chosen for any of the trips to other countries.like korea.and taiwan.i want to try out for UK.with the lit people.but most likely cannot.i din even get chosen for leadership camp!by both careforce and ncc.wtf.

i think i am really disappointing to careforce,considering the fact that i called for the meeting and i am not attending.

ncc.im really hating it.really.i dunt think theres any hope in me going for the top 5.during the SAR 21 trainfire,i was thinking why wasn't i up there.competing with the guys.because i am not good enough.why wasnt i chosen for the good things.because i am not one of the tops.and.i really hate it for the fact that ncc is biased.obviously.especially some people like *.

s302'10.its quite good.except with the presence of *.so distractive.why isn't he studying?and if he does not want to study,dunt go affect others la!zzz.i want to study de kays!chaochaochao.but mostly the class quite neutral de.

i've been having a lot of programmes,tml chinese debate,monday maths remedial then prep for c lit presentation,tues got chem make up test and practical with leryang and benedict.after that got prep for assembly ccc presentation with huixin and Mr Q.wed got c lit plus presentation practice with huixin and mr kieu.and vp pang.zzz.

plus got a lot of tests!i havent even started studying.tml and the day after got debate.zzz.sianz.how am i supposed to study???!!!!!!!i must get good grades!i must not get retained like*!!!!!!!!CANNOT!!!!!

STRESSED.

2010-01-20T00:05:00.003+08:00

anyway,second day of OC
woke up like 5 smth
damn cold de then no cover also
and i suddenly realized the guys and girls had slept together in the same room!
wow
if the teachers find out abt this we're dead man
then i was like shivering
then i sat up.
and aloysius said my hair very pong and very qiao
zzz
i dunt keep a posture when i am sleeping de lor
who would anyway-.-
then went to brush teeth etc
then went back to 103 again
chatted with william qinyin jianyi
listen to music
danced for a short while
so that i wunt be so cold
then went to wake the sec 1s up
then PT
woah seriously suck like shit manz
the pt like so un-PTish
not like the sec1s dunt have pe lor
then nicholas and billy ptis
even better
suddenly push up then jumping jacks
do until halfway stop
sianz
then breakfast
eat eat makan
then went for the next programme
guess wad?
sec 1s to learn how to tie plaits and ties
me qinyin yuwan limin sac went to tie plaits first
yuwan perfectionist lol
then i went to 108
then xin huei was like demo
then i helped her lor
then after that mass dance
woots that was the funnest part!
we all damn high de!
especially for all for one
then got go on stage
the stage like going kua le
but who cares
tiao until veh kai xin
then debrief
then we do careforce cheer
ziqing gave the idea of 三欢 and 三呼and 三欢呼for careforce!
hip hip,hooray!
hip hip,hooray!!
hip hip,hooray!!
then we went to pizza hut eat
got some probs
but lol its okay
william was almost dozing off le
lol
then went back
and slept until sunday 11am
yea.thats orientation camp 2010
memorable,unforgettable and I WANT OC AGAIN!!!!!

2010-01-17T23:35:00.002+08:00

ORIENTATION CAMP 2010

first day!
reached school damn early
but to my surprise,my bag was very light
thats cause there were a lot of unecessary things to bring on the kitlist
like watch with alarm.
no handphones?
3 t shirts
they giving one camp tee,wear one enough le wad
diaos
then went to hall
got lanyard and nametag and camp leaders t shirt
CAMP LEADERS
like so got power de lor
the tee is yellow
GENESIS!!!
then got the sec 1s settled
i was deco comm
but duno why alumni haven't come
so we join into station masters
i joined xin hui!!!
then we got the bench game
not as interesting as our year
cuz cannot splash water
zzz
me xinhui geraldine rachel paul timothy
getting the sec 1s to squeeze on 4 benches and moving the 5th bench towards the front
yay,i was very happy with my debrief
yay yay yay
then lunch
me zi hui timothy xinhui and timothy serve lunch
lol the plates sizes all very funny
then me and xinhui was like damn hungry de lor
but must wait until everyone served then can makan
not bad la the food
then continued with games
then after that geraldine was like bei timothy injure
then got one bruise on her knee
then russell help her apply ice etc
the funny part was
he even got crutches and stretcher sia!!!!!
we were like siao dao bu ke yi liao
geraldine was like pleading no i duwan stretcher no i duwan!!!
then somemore russell make her lie down on the bench and give her floormat to lie down on
damn funny de
then mass dance
the sec 1 like so not high de
then the dance also not high
so very sianz lor like oni us zi high
then dinner!
zz zhao go give me so much vegetables!!!!
then give geraldine so little!!!
biaskia
then aft that we went to sky garden to meet with senior kk
he prepared us for the night games
then we got the mealworms de
actually the mealworms veh small can
-.-then the sec1 skit a bit sian
i love 108 de!!!!
they so cute class morale also veh high
good good good
then kidnapping activity
went to 5th floor
then we gathered around
talking about other things
distracting ourselves from the scary night
then after night games
supper
chatted lor
then bathe
then aft that was careforce debrief
then we went to 103 classroom and discussed recruitment day
then talk talk talk until tired le then sleep
second day i post tml
getting tired~~~

2010-01-10T22:52:00.001+08:00

TO All the sec 4s
JIAYOUS FOR your o levels!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-10T22:34:00.002+08:00

tml need go school again...
haiz i havent bei the mo xie for hcl nia
but tml first period is c lit
sianz
nothing to do
i shall chiong homework
still got a lot of homework nvr do sia
anyw
i chionged my jian baos le
yay
quite happyyyyyy
but must quickly finish homework
i must be hardworking de.
anyw
sis is outting her first choice as girl guides
oh well,better than library ba
slack de
tml got mo xie
very nervous
but on another hand
its been a long time since i had a mo xie le
this weekend oc le
deco comm
wth
aiya who cares la
can be in can le
should be satisfied ba
TO charmaine: wish you all the best in ur years in NJC!!!tml is ur first day of school,jiayous!
im in quite a just-cant-be-happy mood
and i want sea glassssssssssssssssssss!!!!
that book is always missing zzzz

2010-01-09T23:53:00.002+08:00

today's cca extravaganza
wore number 3,attire chack etc etc
my heels were already numb before the whole thing started lor
then introduced..etc
ma'am janice epic pro de manz
she step up to the bench and started
then we were like all silence
then cheers
was quite boring
after that went central
everywhere full of ppl nia
me wanling justina go da bao macs
went to kfc meet lijie yafei suelynn
then i accidentally knock down a tray with my shoebag
oops wtf
then eat lor
suelynn was like shooting ice at people
ROFL
then yanting was like air con drip or smth?!!!!
haha
then went home by 963 lor
cuz felt like having a longer trip home
then at the bus stop there saw ex-encik liyu
then i was like
shoot.need greet anot uh
suan le.he doesnt know me.he forgot le la.
so i ignore lor
but after that i realized i was wearing the ncc camp t 09
shit.but nvm lor.
he also nvr say anything.
i seem to be getting a phobia of seniors.
and i have to finish my homework by tml nia.
so much.
anyw the soles of my that kok kok shoe dropped off.
zzzzz wth wth

2010-01-04T23:39:00.003+08:00

okie im back!
first day of school today!
quite a good one la
too bad oni last for one day
had the usual admin stuff
urgh i wish the class would quiet down when it comes to announcements
i cant even hear can
but the games were quite fun:))))
councillor also quite friendly
but somehow
the class a bit 冷
tml start class le
sianz half.
then form teacher is chem de.
sianz 1/4
i totally sick in chem and bio and maths lor.
yay but from today onwards,i am going to study study study!!!!!
must get good grades then can go good JC
then can go good University
anyw,open house is this sat
so we are doing booth thing.
aiya,totally nothing to do today la
good news is Mr Kieu is 302's co-form and HCL teacher!!!!
woots woots woots
and i think i have free period in c lit cuz c lit is aft school
just hope everything goes well:DDD

2009-12-24T22:17:00.002+08:00

haha.this is quite an interesting week.

YESTERDAY

had sec 1 reg exercise,went for 2 tours,one with william one with yijin
yea she came back lol
the tour not bad la
but i a bit at a loss of wad to say lor
then lunch was niceeee!!!!
and in the morning me and jianyi go give out the booklets
cecilia and iris was like "Good morning,welcome to nan hua .please turn to your right"
then like robot repeating hahahaha
then me and jianyi keep going refill the booklets
ROFL
total amount of people go for tour oni like 30++
nvr reach 50 lor
but most went for open house
then after the whole exercise
we went to lift lobby play games
then play the name-reversing game + the duno-call-wad game
damn fun de!!!
then forfeit was catwalk
me jianyi vanesse and yuwan tio
haha
then jianyi was like step out then step back "OMIGOD 有人!!!!"
then he stepped back
LMAO!!!!
then after that we do group de
even funnier
cuz i was the one filming for the second catwalk
then got the alumni people walk down the slope
then they were like"You filming ah??"then i nod
then he go see the camera
"NOt bad ,Not bad"
i was like cnt laugh cuz later the camera shake
then explode lor
quite a fun day
then we went cityvibes buy bubbletea
took 106 with william
then changed to 963
go homeee!
then go sleep le
its a busy day

TODAY

went to library for cip at 2 to 5
then was like go into a room then label the boxes with another commonwealth girl
then was like stack back le found out that we nvr write the number of books on the paper
take down again,then record
damn heavy lor those boxes
then we were like finished early so chatted a while
then take books go level 2 return
then borrow with the NLB library card
siao sia
221 books
with one card
the receipt like damn damn long de
can roll to the floor de
then after that nothing to do le
then the librarian lakshmi tell us go replenish brochures
lol
then last 15 minutes nothing to do le
hahaha
she tell us go browse books for ourselves
then we jalan jalan around sian sian lor
but quite good la
today is better than last 2 sessions
and its fun!!
im starting to enjoy cip
yay
anyw
going malaysia tml till 27
then 28 need go back school for combined leaders meeting:D

2009-12-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

okay throughout this hol have been doing quite a lot of things:D
im going to miss my time sleeping late in the morning.
anyw,sec 1 reg is the day aft tml,and we had planning today
quite fun
subway is niceeeee!!:D

2009-11-07T15:59:00.000+08:00

okie just came back from cultural camp!!!!
woots it rocks
really
no words to describe
yea!!!and i met lots of new friends
and some cute cute pri guys
nan hua pri +nan hua high=fantabulous combination

2009-10-28T20:26:00.002+08:00

okay.today changed blogskins.
again.i'll work on the links soem day later
anyway,tml is dragonboating.
yea
can tan tan tan
then 30 oct its CULTURAL CAMP!!!!!
woots woots woots
and i found out who my roomates are le!
dunno her.
and the timeline say got KBOX SAFRA!!!!
excited le
today went library
yea.

2009-10-27T21:54:00.005+08:00

OKAY.CHANGED BLOGSKINS.
HOPE IT LOOKS GOOD.

anyway
i shall post abt yesterday.
an interesting day i can say..
in the morning had ncc meeting'
forgot to bring the $8 dollars><
then after went for the gift wrapping thing
haha mine turned out quite okay
with the craft pro beside me(charmaine)
then charmaine was like maple maple maple
lol
anyway
after that it was recess lor
eat lor
then go back class
we were supposed to do farewell card for Dr.Foo
buden me and char just slacked around
i was reading
char sleeping
*Oink Oink
then after that oscar walk up to me
i was having one earphone on
then he say:put the other earphone on
me:huh?why?
him:just put la
me:okay(then put both earphones on)
he mouthed something like "i love you"
i knew la
duh
like i couldn't read lips lidat
the rainbow gay club playing truth or dare i think
sian diao
then after that
went home
saw a dead iguana lying on the road
i was like OH.MY.GOD
then char just screamed and ran towards the bus stop
i was like err....
then laughed
then we continued staring at people who were scared by it
lol
then went to CCK library
then went home lor
..yea that practically sums up everything.

TODAY
was a boring day
woke up at like 10 30
today no school
it was promotion day
then read books
then mum tell me bring a-di to evergreen pri sch
basically cuz i was so free
i was almost going nuts
cuz that guy just keeps running ard
then a-mei went for her performance
yea
then after that came home again
then in the aftnoon
a-di came back
cuz he knocked his head against a pillar and had to go for stitch
what the
run la run somemore
zzz
and now
while i was chatting with qirong
dc-ed.
what the
what in the god's name is wrong with msn?!!!!!!
and it dc-ed at the wrong time
what the hell.

2009-10-25T22:11:00.002+08:00

today is so not a good day.
anyw.went out for brunch(breakfast+ lunch) at plaza 888
then went to aunt lili's house
they all say i become veh tall
really meh..
then we went to the bottle tree park
quite beautiful
but boring
and dad just keep taking my phone to take pictures just because his camera no battery!
spoiling my mood la.
sianz half.
that place is good for barbeque la.
then went to northpoint,the ishi mura
ate the teppanyaki thing
then went to library
the library there not bad sia
i found the secret circle:the captive part 2 and the power.
but the bad thing is i forgot the first part of the story le..
so..its still not a good thing.
then went home lor..
watched a bit of tv..
tml sch till 12!!! i am so going to cover all the libraries in singapore
but i dunt have the allowance for books le thats the bad thing.
sianz
its still as sianz as ever..
hope sis will quickly finish poison study and magic study and nightworld series.
then i can borrow.zzz.
i feel so stupid.
im at the edge of breaking down.
things dunt go the way i wanted it to.
what the hell.

2009-10-24T22:40:00.002+08:00

today is quite a tired day..both physically and mentally.anyw since i woke up i read nightworld book 2.so,the books left of the series im "chasing" are:
>Nightworld book 1(reread)
>Fire study
>Twilight(sis)
>Breaking dawn(sis)
>The vampire diaries

yea!!!Qinyin said she could lend me Nightworld book 1 and fire study.woots!!!!haiz anyw,sis started on poison study.then we went swimming at CCK swimming pool in the evening..then i came back and went to the subject combi thing.
first choice:HCL,eng,maths,a maths,bio,chem,combined humanities(geog),chinese lit
second choice:El,HCL,maths,A maths phy,chem,combined humanities(hist),bio
third choice:EL,HCL,maths,a maths,phy,chem,comined humanities(geog),bio,elit
yea..
then went to do the minutes for careforce sec 3 level meeting
im really confused right now..
really..
is it within my ability to do chinese lit??\
would i be able to memorise so many things??
and would i be able to cope with the lessons?
and would i be able to put in as much effort as charmaine did for her studies?or even more?
i really dunt know...

2009-10-22T21:56:00.002+08:00

haiz.today is quite a boring day..in the morning had to take MRT to school,cuz chunyi was at camp so no taxi...and tied my plaits quite badly sia..right side was okay but left side was like hair jutting out in all places..then throughout the whole day veh boring ..lagged at UNO stress..then chinese got A1,maths got 53/100,chem was 13/30,biology was 7/20.at first i got 8 then surin go minus one mark cuz i write wrongly for INTRA-UTERINE DEVICE.i wrote internal.what the hell.why all the teachers so niao de.then after school went to CCK library,hoping to find the books i wanted but all dun have.then went to WOODLANDS library.on the way saw xiao yi,the ncc senior.he change a lot sia!!!!then i glanced at him he abit like paikia le.then found nightworld and magic study and poison study which i've read before so im going to return them tml at JRL.now at nightworld book 2 and 3.i wan find nightworld book 1!!!duno which two idiots hogging the books in woodlands library what the hell..anyw.donated $2 to duno-wad indonesian thingy.yay.then went to old chang kee buy curry puffs for mum.then went home lor.And as i was too busy glancing at the books,i missed my stop and had to walk back again.zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.reached home, finished the rest of the pearkls with milk tea +milo powder.sounds disgusting but its nice really.haiz holidays quickly come i want go out with friends!!!and read!!!this is so boring everyone on msn is like busy...

2009-10-21T20:31:00.002+08:00

okay.i only have half an hour.GREAT.what sia.everyday half an hour on com not enough de lor.
anyw,today's okay.slept till 11 smth then aft read again..i have absolutely nothing to do zzz..then usual things..during afternoon cooked pearls..yea..successful!!!anyw i was eating them while cooking la..lol had to wash a lot of spoons..anyw..im making the bubble tea later!!!!!wish me good luck...tml have to go school again..sianzzzzzz but im looking forward to the results..

2009-10-20T21:25:00.002+08:00

okay..
its a nice day..
anyw
been reading novels since like when i wake up
and then went down kindergarten bring a mei home
yea
aft lunch mum forced me go tidy up my room.
sianz.
the pile of books on the floor bed table was finally packed into a box.
still very tin teh.
then mum forced me go wash toilet!!!!
a wei pangseh-ed me
so in the end i had to clean the whole toilet by myself
what the heck
then i at first wanted to go library
then mum duwan let me go again..
sianz.
then she tell me go cook!
okay
my pasta turned out quite okay a few days ago
today cook the soup
well..
not bad la.
dad brought pearls
so im planning to cook them and make bubble tea!!!
yea..
anyw
watched feng shen bang..
then bathe then aft that dinner lor
then tried out the samsung jet dad gave me
but sadly
i couldnt find the messages~~~~~
what the heck
and the things in front i also duno how to get rid of them
sian diaos
so im still trying to find a way to function that thingy
on the verge of giving up le lor
sianz
feel so sua gu
and my hair is not growing very well either
sianz
life is as boring as ever
i must go library tml!!!!
else i will die die die...

2009-10-19T22:22:00.002+08:00

okay.just came back from tuition.anyw.mr imran started a new chapter of physics.yea.slacked most of the time cuz he only had to teach abt pendulum.and how they suan ming and all but apparently it din work lols..and told us a lot of stories.shab din come anyw.haha.downloading things now.

2009-10-19T15:19:00.002+08:00

okay.my freaking flu +sore throat went awayyyyy..
so.i cut my hair short.
wanted a new look la.then need some kinda change in my life.
next year.i have decided to be a scholar.
mug mug mug.
aspire to be like charmaine.
yea.
and im learning piano now...
something that i once liked.
but after 'O' Levels i wanna learn drumming.
anyw..
this few days..
have read a lot of books..
novels etc
and watched TVEeeeee!!!
veh relaxed..
i want to go out..
sian lah
thurs go back sch duno how to tie plaits le
but cnt dunt tie cuz its over collar
and i look funny..
in front go cut fringe again...
its a bit outshaped..
anyways
a couple of good movies came out
like my sister's keeper
and new moon which is going to come out i think in november
and im going to chiong CIP.
yea.

2009-10-16T18:52:00.001+08:00

okay.End of EOYs le.so i can PLAY PLAY PLAY!!!!i am like crazy but cnt post too long also cuz im to rush to tuition like abt 3 mins later.sianz.today last paper art..haiz.not bad la.but im like getting a flu.dummy dummy flu..sianz.FLU GO AWAY!!!

2009-10-03T12:06:00.001+08:00

haiz.missed the mid autumn thing.cuz got tuition.f la.later gpoing malaysia.celebrate mid-autumn.yea.tml then can pia le.sianz.eoys are coming at a rapid speed.

2009-09-29T23:22:00.000+08:00

i have to focus.really.only with focusing i can distract myself from other things.anyw.went to buy the ingredients for the mid-autumn thing.

2009-09-28T22:16:00.000+08:00

okays.im going to focus on my EOYs.i shall focus.

2009-09-28T13:55:00.002+08:00

Whatever Will Be lyrics

Sometimes I feel like I'm a bird with broken wings
At times I dread my now and envy where I've been
But that's when quiet wisdom takes control
At least I've got a story no one's told
[Chorus] I finally learned to say
Whatever will be will be
I've learned to take
The good, the bad and breathe
'Cause although we like
To know what life's got planned
No one knows if shooting stars will land
These days it feels naive to put your faith in hope
To imitate a child, fall backwards on the snow '
Cause that's when fears will usually lead you blind
But now I try to under-analyse
[Chorus] Is the rope I walk wearing thin?
Is the life I love caving in?
Is the weight on your mind
A heavy black bird caged inside?
Say Whatever will be will be
Take The good, the bad Just breathe
'Cause although we like
To know what life's got planned
No one knows if shooting stars will land
Whatever will be will be
I learned to take The good, the bad and breathe
'Cause although we like
To know what life's got planned
Thing like that are never in your hands
No one knows if shooting stars will land

What the hell.

2009-09-28T13:44:00.002+08:00

okay.now in ict.too bad cnt facebook.zzzz.anyw.some things happeneed to me.i am so crammed inside.need do ict le .byes.

2009-09-27T22:13:00.001+08:00

haiz.been banned from the comp for like 1 week.sianz.and LOADS of things happen.but made good use of my time and mugged mugged mugged for EOYs.one more week.so much things happened.haiz.can someone just tell me wads going on....

2009-09-21T11:56:00.018+08:00

WEICHEN GORGOR'S WEDDING!!!woke up at like 8 am today.then went to lili 姑姑's house for the tea ceremony.weichen gor gor's wedding day.reached there gugu they all keep asking me to eat .zzzz.i not pig lols.loads of food sia.anyw.the bride was very nice.actually i kinda saw her during the 清明节.then that time she was still gor gor's gf.oh ya i remember her name le.JANICE.yeas.anyw gaoxiao-ed a lot.took loads of pics:D

yea.thats the tea ceremony.tracy gugu.
alex gor gor and ying ying jiejie.they first time drinking the tea sia.lols

lols.timing not 准enough.

ying ying jiejie giving janice jiejie the necklace.look abit weird uh.
okie.a nicer view.the necklace like very diff to hook so tracy gugu go help(the woman in the blue shirt)

thats dad.the timing not bad.hahaha.mum still in hong kong haven't come back yet,so its just dad lor.

全家福！！！from left: Wei Li gor gor ,janice jiejie ,weichen gorgor ,alex gorgor,Li Li gugu and ying ying jie jie and ALICIA!!!we were like trying to get her attention to make her look to the cam lols.

plus Betty gugu and Li Fang gugu.

plus tracy gugu and ethan(the small boy)and shu gong and shu po.and ALICIA!!!
the next pic cuz i was in there.so din manage to take pic.haix.

weichen gorgor taking off the headdress of janice jiejie .it took damn long.so i took lots of pics.

half of the headress out..after a LONG LONG time.
with my so imperfect timing ,din manage to take the pic of weichen gor gor throwing the headdress into the air.lols.

KISS!!!!look at that look on weichen gorgor's face lols.at first got one before that but then too short so we ask janice jiejie kiss again hahaha.
Me and Ethan !!!!he so cute right!!!!he play catching damn cute de!!!
i look a bit weird though...
thats weichen gor gor feeding alicia a strand of noodle...lols alicia duwan give him the fork so he use hand hahahaha
okay.the end.very ke xi nvr take pic with janice jiejie.but nvr mind.theres going to be lots of chances in the future!!!she so chio lor.
then went back home .the end.later going changi airport fetch mum and ahgong and ahma.
haiz.last few time of freedom.and and 3 days=0%homework and revision.need pia le.
at night going for the wedding dinner.lols.today =0% homework also.plus TOTALLY no revision.abit let down myself but aiya dunt care la.anyw i got to learn and revise bao zhang bao dao format.so maybe its like 5% revision lor.
still okay la.

2009-09-20T15:49:00.000+08:00

Afraid

Just when it's getting good
I slowly start to freeze
Just when it's feeling real I put my heart to sleep
It's the memory I can see
Then this fear comes over me
Understand that I don't mean
To push you away from me

[Chorus]
Why am I so afraid to crash down and lose my heart again
I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me
Why am I so afraid to break down and lose my mind again
I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me

You got a way of easing me out of myself
I can't stay but I can't leave, I am my worst enemy
Please understand that its not you it's what I do
Just when I'm about to run I realize what I've become

[Chorus]
Why am I so afraid to crash down and lose my heart again
I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me
Why am I so afraid to break down and lose my mind again
I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me

Now I wonder what you think of me
Don't know why I break so easily
All my fears are armed surrounding me
I can't get no sleep
I keep runnin' in circles around you
Are you the trap I wanna fall into??

[Chorus]
Why am I so afraid to crash down and lose my heart again
I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me
Why am I so afraid to break down and lose my mind again
I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me

2009-09-20T15:39:00.001+08:00

i cant take it anymore.
what the hell.
i seriously cant take it anymore.
stop thinking that im so strong.

2009-09-20T03:17:00.001+08:00

okie.just type finish the 10 zuo wens .quite okay la.can memorise abit le.chionging geog and hist notes tml.yea.now my cheng jiu gan damn high.

2009-09-19T23:03:00.003+08:00

okay.the first day without mum.woke up like at 10 smth.then started on zuo wens.not bad la.the speed still quuite fast.then went to wash the clothes.forgot to put sofetener.eeks.had to re-wash again wth.zzzz.then aft that went KFC for lunch.also nt bad la.a bit fat though.then come back.do zuo wens again.then sdo-ed a while.veh fun!!!then eat dinner lor.watch the sharkboy and lavagirl.abit.then went back chionging again.now at the seventh.haha .then talked to qinyin on phone.yea.i dunt feel like sleeping.hmm.shall do finish the zuo wens ,then go play sdo.hahaha.i can play wu niang le!!!!so nice.duno yanning can play le anot.this weekend go back must see haha.

2009-09-18T22:40:00.001+08:00

fuck fuck fuck la!!!!fuck

2009-09-18T22:13:00.001+08:00

what the fuck la.im so mixed.how can that person hurt me like this?wtf?!what the hell!!fuck la

2009-09-18T11:23:00.002+08:00

okay.just finished some game of sdo.zzzz.char was like kan bu qi sdo.just because she plays maple.wtf la.ppl oni level 1 sia.

2009-09-18T10:53:00.001+08:00

eeks.char look angry.

2009-09-18T10:42:00.002+08:00

What the hell.a lot of things screw up today.zzzzzz.haiz.actually its from last night.drank overnight bubblre tea.the bubble was like eeyer so hard and gooey.but it was still nice.then dad was like asking me how to make a blog.then i was like explaining then mum tell me shut up go sleep.what the f.then morning i asked mdm tan wads HYDROGEN PEROXIDE.she say:I don't want to tell you.You all should have done ur studying earlier.u should not be asking me questions at the eleventh hour.then kim was like "but asking is better than not asking right?"then mdm tan talked lots of crap about being defiant.she very fucking freak sia.she said if u all duno can come and ask me then we ask le she duwan answer WALAO eh.then it was maths.freaking mr teng.give us so much homework for wad?lidat also veh shuang meh?i want to study humanities de leh.wth.then chem test.screwed up last questions.what the.i got study sia.zzzz.fail liao mdm tan going give that sickening face again.wtf.then recess.was damn hungry but i forget to bring money!!!wtf.why didnt i take last night.now i'll have to starve.haiz.got oral somemore sia.now is PW.char is doing the planning thingy.haiz.got lots of things i want to criticise,but i shall just swallow my words in case i 得罪any other ppl again.haiz.

2009-09-17T20:38:00.000+08:00

okie.added more ppl.today had eng oral.veh luan.say a lot of wrong things.shitz.tml chem test and chinese oral sia.walao.i hope i dunt suddenly mind block duno wad to say sia.zzzz.needa go mug history le.byeees.

2009-09-15T23:17:00.003+08:00

okay.i kinda can post.FINALLY.cuz i updated mozilla yay.haiz.anyw.thats the scenario.hadn't enough time to post in school.freaking mr tang.zzzz.anyw.i was totally freaked out.eeks.then today.chionged chinese and all.then recess.kyler and gang was like showed yewheng's hp to me then saw the message.zzzzz.was abit offended la.abit oni.but nvm lor.things lidat always happen to me de.forget it.haiz.anyw.i am having quite a bad sore throat and flu.si wei wei lor.my immune system veh good de okaay...then today went back home with charmaine.she was quite busy anyw.reading the ci2 hui4s.sian.then reached home eat.then sleep till like 7.30pm.then start on hw.haiz.confirm cnt finish de la.haiz.tml got chinese test.and eng oral.jiayous ba.i very tired now....

乱族加油！！！！

2009-09-15T08:28:00.002+08:00

kay.im like in the school comp lab.doing the survey .i shall post abit abt
YESTERDAY

school was okay.anyw.chionged home with char.
then i was blocked by a pervert!
SEXUAL HARASSED!!!
i shall post the scenarios.

(i walking up the stairs to my flat)
(the man blocked me)
he: Do u know how to speak chinese?
me:yes?
(he walk over to a bench sit down)
he:can u give me $5?i need to take bus to the hospital to visit my brother.
Me:i dunt have any money.
he:never mind u got $2,$1 50 cents all can
me:i really have no money
he:oh okay nevere mind
he:then can i trade clothes with you?
me:huh?
he:cuz i want to nan ban nu zhuang
me:ermm its illegal in Singapore
he:really mah?but i saw a lot of people dress like that on the streets.
me:i dunt know maybe they are charged liao.
he:i want to nan ban nu zhunag because the skirt looks very nice when wind blows
he:and i cannot be a girl unless i cut off my that one
me:err.i cnt.
he:why
Me:duno.duwan.
he:then u have an old skirt at home can give to me?
Me:no.my mother dunt throw away clothes.
me:i need to go up liao
(chionged up stairs go second floor and take lift home)
i was like eeeks!pervert la!!!!!!sexual harassment!!!

2009-09-13T22:57:00.000+08:00

shall post the lyrics for The Rose
by Westlife.

Some say love it is a river
That drowns the tender reed.
Some say love it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed.

Some say love it is a hunger
An endless, aching need
I say love it is a flower,
And you it's only seed.

It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance

It's the one who won't be taken,
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying
That never learns to live.

When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long.
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong.

Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love,
In the spring, becomes the rose.

2009-09-13T22:29:00.001+08:00

okie.came back from malaysia at abt 7 smth.phone was like no batt le.anyw.i shall talk abt my wonderful time there!.woke up like at 8am.then sit car to malaysia(duh or else walk there meh).went to ahyi's stall.ate niang do fu.with yanning!!!then stayed with them until they shou dang.dad mum bro sis go Giant,wei go ahma's house sleep.she sickk.then went to yanning's house.played sdo.for the first time sia.only know how to play jiang jun ling.then weisu came.oops sorry.its suwei.then he play like god lidat.i was like siao,做莫会有这种人的?!he dunid see de lor.then after like a very long time.went back to ahma's house eat the ai yu bing.its orange.not kickapo.i prefer kickapo better.then went back yanning's house again.played somemore.more of watching la.then keep suaning the suwei.haha.shall chiong sdo sfter the eoys ba.can play freely.anyw.after eoys i have a list of things to do.

--play piano
--play sdo
--nightworld series book 2 and 3
--fire study
--vampire diaries series
--go library!!
--outing with friends
--CULTURALCAMP!!
--careforce camp!!!
--ncc annual camp!!!
--OUTINGS!!!
--GATHERINGS!!!

yea.looking forward to aft eoys!!!can play play play!!!woots!now must muggg first.先苦后甜。yea.everyone jiayous!!!

anyws..found out that yonglin ahgu marrying on 6 december.2009.not bad.see whether novenber and october have anot.hahaha.

2009-09-12T18:22:00.001+08:00

yay i finally have a laptop carrier!!dad bought it at the duno wad sale thingy.And he is playing with the iPhone!!!I want!!!!but i still like my 6500 slide more.haha.bio sianz sia.want type notes duno how to type.loads of diagrams sia.shalll mug history instead.
shall try to post a picture.

eeks cnt sia.wtfff.
what the hell.
never mind.i shall add more ppl.

2009-09-12T17:29:00.000+08:00

ok.i definitely dunot know how to post pictures on this idiotic blogger thingy.haiz.i think its becuz i using mozilla firefox sia.haiz.forget it.i shall try.tml going malaysia.cuz mum want help ah ma get her luggage.YESSSSS!!!!bball with yanning tongtong yihui zhengyue sanyi ahgu!!!mum say its morning to aftnoon.so morning can go ahyi there eat breakfast!!!woots!but must type some notes bring there memorize.yea.work hard and play hard.haiz.im putting on a lot of weight le.must cut cut CUTTTT!!!after eoy and period of eoy must try to lose some weight.21 sept weichen gorgor wedding .can go yea!

2009-09-10T22:08:00.000+08:00

okay.shall blog abit ba.watching 命中注定我爱你。its damn nice can!!!!!!!!just now did some chinese hw.today was mostly maths and chinese ba.and msning now.yay.finally got chance to le.haha.haiz.life is still very boring.

2009-09-10T16:33:00.000+08:00

okay shall blog abit.basically.from morning till now,i've been doing hw.so guaii.yea.and im going bonkers.now working on the arc kength thingy,which is practically killing me.anyw,got some inspirational messages yesterday and made me look to life from another point of view.我不是为他而活的。ate a lot of ice cream and junk food.at the rate im eating,i'll be damn fat sia.must control le.60 kg le sia.siao siao de.still got 3 more days,then school reopen le.so sianz.need mug again.siao.命中注定我爱你is really nice.after holidays im going to do loads of things yea.LOADS.jiayous ba.life still goes on.

2009-09-09T16:22:00.000+08:00

okay.zzz.im being emotionally raped.so.this is wad happened.sitong and leiwei and xiaoqi and sinyi came.then they start spamming the ppl on my msn contact list.wth.zzzz.mengyeow weixuan hazel all tio liao.sianz.and im like going too high cuz of eating too much sweets.then i was like asking khiayi what is the best brand of basketball.shall write the convo.

me:eh wads the best brand of basketball ah?
khiayi:...(duno how to answer)
me:oh ..(haven finish)
sitong:nike la!
khiayi:o.O nike got basketball one meh?
we were like LOLLLLLLLLLs.

zzzz.haven't really finish any thing yet.wthhhhhhhh.sianz.one whole long list of things uncompleted.zzzz.and noone's online.haiya.no life de.

2009-09-09T10:16:00.001+08:00

okie.im now like in JRL.supposed to be doing work but i shall surf the net for a while first.heehee.anyws.brought a lot of hw.so must do.zzzz.lols.charmaine is making a bio heart lols.eeks.now shes cutting the veins and arteries away.what the.LOLS shes making a straw heart la!!!!.z.need mug for EOYs.got one whole stack of eoy papers.zzzz.okie.shall blog later when i have things to blog abt.now so sianz.munching on a pack of calbee prawn crackers.qy haven't come yet.hahas the 2maths professors Charmaine and donkey helping me to do the pythagoras theorem thing,since my IQ abit low.IQ 133.zzzz.

2009-09-06T22:00:00.001+08:00

zzzz.what the hell.can i get a life.

2009-09-06T21:51:00.000+08:00

okie.havent been posting.cuz mum banned me.now shes telling me get off again.zzz.shall blog on wed ba.

2009-09-04T10:54:00.002+08:00

okay.finally get a chance to colour my fonts.cuz of the freaking blogger problem.now in english.needa go the goodenglish thingy.so sianz.yesterday had msn with yanning suwei and a little egg.before i got to know the little egg.my mum came and screamed atme to get off the computer.wth zzzz.okie.i shall start afresh.lots of things have happened,even though it is only like 3 to 4 days.felt like weeks sia.today is the last day of school before the sept holidays.so funnnn.have to mug for end-of-years le.duwan get expelled.sec 2s no retain sia.hols programme is like so much.a holiday which is not like a holiday.art is the last lesson.today im supposed to go for the army open house thingy but i cant.got tuition at 7.30.the thing ends at like 6.30.so.CONFIRM DELAY DE.by the time i get back to woodlands its like duno wad time.then veh tired.and its maths.mr wong alr screaming at me for not doing and handing up the wkshts liao lor.if i sleep in class he will definitely be damn angry.later bang door again.haiz.i need mug for a lot of subjs,and mum's not letting me go online everyday.anyw.i watching 命中注定我爱你。damn nice de.i hope xinyi wunt go back to cunxi lor.Dylan is like so much better.lols saw mengyeow today.he was the person at theflagpole there sia.at first i thought he raise flag de.then turned out that he was the one shouting.siao.Hwachong now e-learning day sia.so goood.as according to char la.and HAPPY BIRTHDAY PROFESSOR!!!yea.just now chem lor.so sianz i was like know abit of wad mdm tan is toking abt,but dunt completely undertsand.then char was like very exasperated.cuz i veh stupid.and im recommending 2 new songs by westlife.The Rose and If I'd Let You Go.later post the lyrics.haizzzz.msn not a lot of ppl to talk to.and i still find my eyes wandering to the basketball court.idiotzzzz.must tear my eyes away la.aft the eoys i oging find books.Nightworld book 2 and 3,the awakening,the struggle etc.and the Fire study.yays.i want to facebook.zzzz.im like kinda addicted to singing le.and reading and studying.so funnn.then maths also veh exasperated.haven finish last question yet sia.and all the answers not the tb de lor.grrr.now very hungry.just now nvr go recess.and theres stilllike half an hour.the good thing abt today is:CHEONG JIA EN never come!!!!!!!!WOOTSSSSSS.yay.any,bought a new box of paints.wunt have to go to all the trouble to go basic point buy tubes to refill le yays.and last week go malaysia.made some new friends.susei and jiesi and jianhua.well,not really friends la.oni know suwei oni.cuz jianhua and jiesi nvr msn.in malaysia its like so good lor.friends' house only the street behind u only.want go play game so easy la.they playing sdo.i think its smth like Audition.yanning was liek kepp wanting to whack suwei.and jianhua said if yanning go play sdo he strip and run around.LOLS.jiesi was like laughing there.damn lor nvr take pics.okie gtg le byesss.shall update sometime later.

2009-09-03T22:13:00.001+08:00

POCKETFUL OF SUNSHINE

I got a pocket,
Got a pocket full of sunshine
I got a love an' I know that it's all mine
Oh, oh whoa oh
Do what you want,
But you never gonna break me,
Sticks an' stones are never gonna shake me
No, oh whoa, oh

[Chorus]
Take me away (take me away)
A secret place (a secret place)
A sweet escape (a sweet escape)
Take me away (take me away)
Take me away (take me away)
To better days (to better days)
Take me away (take me away)
A hiding place (a hiding place)

[Interlude]
I got a pocket,
Got a pocket full of sunshine
I got a love an' I know that it's all mine
Oh, oh whoa, oh
Do what you want,
But you never gonna break me,
Sticks an' stones are never gonna shake me
No, oh, whoa oh

I got a pocket,
Got a pocket full of sunshine
I got a love an' I know that it's all mine
Oh, oh whoa, oh

Wish that you could,
But you ain't gonna own me
Do anything you can to control me
No, oh No-o

[Chorus]
Take me away (take me away)
A secret place (a secret place)
A sweet escape (a sweet escape)
Take me away (take me away)
Take me away (take me away)
To better days (to better days)
Take me away (take me away)
A hiding place (A hiding place)

[Hook]
There's this place that I go
Where nobody knows
Where the rivers flow
And I call it home
And there's no more lies
And the darkness is light
And nobody cries
There's only butterflies

[Chorus 2x]
Take me away (take me away)
A secret place (a secret place)
A sweet escape (a sweet escape)
Take me away (take me away)
Take me away (take me away)
To better days (to better days)
Take me away (take me away)
A hiding place (a hiding place)

Take me away (take me away)
A secret place (a secret place)
A sweet escape (a sweet escape)
Take me away (take me away)
Take me away (take me away)
To better days (to better days)
Take me away (take me away)
A hiding place (a hiding place)

[Chorus & Interlude MIX]
Take me away (take me away)
A secret place (a secret place)
A sweet escape (a sweet escape)
Take me away (take me away)
Take me away (take me away
To better days (to better days)
Take me away (take me away)
A hiding place (a hiding place)

I got a pocket,
Got a pocket full of sunshine
I got a love and I know that it's all mine
Oh, oh, oh
I got a pocket,
Got a pocket full of sunshine
I got a love and I know that it's all mine
Oh, oh, oh

The sun's on my side
Take me for a ride
I smile up to the sky
I know I'll be alright

The sun's on my side
Take me for a ride
I smile up to the sky
I know I'll be alright

2009-09-03T22:02:00.001+08:00

CRUSHED

I told myself today was gonna be the day
No more excuses 'cuz I knew exactly what to say
Was gonna make my play but just like yesterday
My mind in waste and I let the moment slip away
Another night got me sitting here all on my own
Picking up the phone,
But i cant get past the dial tone
Rocking my brain
Going insane
Again and again
I cant keep going this way

[CHORUS]
CRUSHED,
By the sweetest lips ive never kissed
How you bring the tips and the warmest touch Ive always missed
CRUSHED,
By the softest hands ive never held
Probably never tell,
You're the strongest love that Ive ever felt
CRUSHED,
That I havent ever let you know
How it always goes
Cuz I lose my nerve whenever you get close
And so Im left,
Short of breath
With that heavy feeling in my chest
Baby Im so crushed

So I told myself that tomorrow gonna be the day
And I keep on telling myself that Im gonna find a way
And I wont be afraid just like yesterday
Wont walk away never gonna let another chance slip away
Cuz' I gotta know which ever way its gonna go
Rest my heart and soul
Cuz' there can never be no more
Rocking my brain
Going insane
Again and again
I wont keep going this way

[CHORUS]

Crushing,
Im so into to you
Dont know what Im gonna do
Gotta find a way to you
I dont know just what to do
Crushing,
Im so into to you
Dont know what Im gonna do
Gotta find a way to youuu
Ohhhh Imm
Crushing,
Im so into you
Dont know what Im gonna do
Gotta find a way to Youuuuuuu Ohohohhhh

And so Im left,
Short of breath
With that heavy feeling in my chest
Baby im so
Cruuuushed

2009-09-03T21:40:00.000+08:00

so.shall talk abt my life over the last 3 days.quite okay i think.had ncc yesterday,tuition the day before before.veh sianz leh.life is so boring.anyway i started to chiong for EOYs le...mostly chinese.then yesterdy damn tired.today went to library to print exam papers.with charmaine.then the photocopier paper jam for like a thousandth times.so pek cek la.then char take back photocopy.yay one more day to holiday!!!!and i've added a few more songs!!!!damn nice and singing songs helps to lift moods:D.since life is so boring,i shall post lyrics.songs can go youtube search.cuz blogger got a very fucking problem.yea.

2009-08-31T14:44:00.002+08:00

today's teachers' day.usual thing,had ACES day also,on the same day.morning was like holding the big bag of presents for the teachers.not bad la.then in the morning talk cork with norman they all lor.then Ming jian say ncc guys going to sing.crap lor where got la.William's giving soap for teachers sia.nice.then after that morning assembly.then had to wait for a long time before we were dismissed.then its like what the hell .so jiu.then finally went back to change into class tee and PE shorts.Freak it la why cnt wear FBT.idiot.then went for the mass walk.we were the last class to walk.me and charmaine were the last pair of the last class.nice.then on the way very sian la.nth to talk abt.then mdm tan jun hong they all 搞笑.okay la.at least got some form of entertainment.then eat into our recess.reached school le went to put the presents in the pigeon holes of the teachers.Ms goh,the ICT one cnt find her.zzz.then went to eat.din feel hungry so just ate a 辣椒鱼burger lor.and a cup of grape thingy.then it was PE.Played captains' ball in the parade square.sian la all the courts taken.then HCL.Mr Q say no time for lesson so let us watch funny videos.DAMN FUNNY de!!!esp the condom one.OOPS.after that changed into uniform and went to the hall for the concert.when me sherralin charmaine came out of the staff toilet,we saw Felix victoria and some other band ppl standing outside.abit gg ah.a guy standing outside girls toilet.the concert nt bad la.liked the band and dance de most.band Felix is the instructor sia.then they did lots of nice things:D.then dance was the classic ballroom dancing and hip hop.wow.its really nice.aft the concert went to classrm take bag.Then weixuan suddenly ask me:eh Jianle u interested in Yewheng ah?I was like what ?!omigod.i speechless.then say no la.thats 不可能的事.zzzz.YH and VGQH la.gl.and i've just fallen out of a relationship.dunt think i will be involved in another one.maybe i 终身不嫁.duno la.see how things goes lor.i believe in fate.but for now.i duwan to hurt myself or anybody again.it still hurts okay.from that thing with zenyoung.then aft that i asked chunyi whether he going back EGPS or not.then he say nt enough time.i suddenly remembered that the visiting time was 1-2pm.crap la.walked to bus stop with charmaine.at the foyer saw zenyoung ryan clara.once he saw me he was like turn his head over.i just glance at him only lor.just once.then ryan also saw me.according to my feelings,i GUESS i haven't got over him yet.it takes time to heal.anyw its like i dunt even know why he want to break la.i just felt that we like suddenly veh cold,so ask him if he want break.then he nvr reply,so i take it as a no lor.then on 25 jul he changed his relationship status on fb.so its,silent break.zzz.duwan talk abt it liao la.conclusion is .I'm dumped.anyws,crapped a lot with sitong char and melanie.Melanie is mean><.then after that 963 came.so took it and went home lor.then saw liyana and wei.was like jumping ard with liyana.yea.then bathe,and here i am,blogging.din go EGPS,cuz their freaking visiting time was 1-2pm.sian la.i reached woodlands at abt 2 smth can.siao.last yr also nvr go cuz got ncc trainfire.haiz.came online hoping to see yanning.she not online.sian la.on the bus suddenly thought of a lot of things. 看到你的时候，会想起跟你在一起的时光，会想起跟你在一起的时候的快乐。但，我永远在也不能拥有这个快乐，因为你离开了。心里好空虚，看到你的时候，还会有一阵心痛。我想，我大概是还没有放下吧。你，躲避我。我根本不知道原因，难道，做不了情人，就不能做朋友吗？痛不欲生。。。

2009-08-29T12:57:00.001+08:00

its a what-the-hell day.

sianz.msn also cnt log in.same old prob again.zzzz.anyw.did the present packaging for the 32 teachers.quite okay la.next is the cards and choco cookies.later going malaysia.tml evening coming back.have to chiong chiong chiong.but good thing is can play basketball at ah ma's house.provided it doesnt rain.yay.and im starting to dislike msn.everytime hang.want to hang for how long.idiottt.anyw.shall go buy ingredients for cookies le.

2009-08-28T21:59:00.002+08:00

WALAO.BLOGGER I BUAY SONG LIAO LA!!WHY THE SYSTEM LIDAT DE WTH!!!!sian sian sian.okie.woke up late today.so missed chunyi's taxi.zzzz had to take mrt to school.was still scared that i'll be late.zzzz.then morning read book.then CEP got cyber wellness thing.the vid was damn funny.nanhua infocomm rocks sia.can do so hitech things.really佩服them sia.then after that maths.the mr teng siao de.give so much classwork somemore still give homework.want us die just say la.then recess eat with QY YJ PX.Qinyin went for NPCC camp today.Good luck bahs.then it was eng.was reading the Red Queen's Daughter.Char was folding stars.she damn pro sia.in a short span of a few weeks got 1000 ++ stars le!!siao siao de..then history.went to AVA room.did the mindmap and watched the vid.Lee Kuan Yew looked so funny.and the Lim Chin Siong who is the bad man look so erm quite nice.LCM caused my history to lose a lot of marks.i dunt like him.then lunch.ate with charmaine.my appetite damn big today.i think its cuz i skipped dinner yesterday night and breakfast just stuffed a mantou into my mouth.so damn hungry.then it was art.retied plaits in like 10 minutes.PRO.then art.kinda screwed up my background.but the pear was okay la.then was chionging cuz oni have like 30 mins.then need hand up today.zzz.then the open-ended part i anyhow do la.then delayed.then mrs lim gave us the list.supposed to sign but heck care la.then aft school went to JP with char buy the cylinder.it can only fill 500 stars.too bad lor.char will have to find another bigger jar.took 187 home..zzz.so boring.reached home,slept for a while.then went tuition.din do the maths wksht.then jiatong crystal W and crystal Lwas like scaring me when they were just in the empty classrm.so funny uh.then Yunqi bought cup noodles into the room to eat.then we tried grape mentos into the coke.then din work.saw a baby cockcroach and screamed .zzz.then went home.tested the choco thing.screwed up like shit lidat.and anyw,命中注定我爱你rocks!!!

2009-08-27T21:11:00.001+08:00

sianz.lessons were blah.aft school had ncc.learned IFC.i suck at rolling with the rifle.and the low crawl can kill ppl de lor.damn tired after physical training.and had quite fun being the timer.:D.aft that dad come drive me home.slept on the car.cuz got jam.zzz.i very tired.i want to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppp!!!!!zzz.tml still got tuition sia.slack slack slack.anyw just do practice questions oni mah.tml qinyin going pulau ubin npcc camp.and i need to buy new track pants.zzzz.the zip is stuck.going to come out le.rifle drills are fun when its drills with them.and i kinda screwed up at teh parede.was supposed to salute.then i thought is march le then salute.so i march.zzz.i am so very tired.

2009-08-25T21:57:00.000+08:00

okay.i shall post another one.nothing to do anyw.okay.so had school today.yea.lessons were a blah.in ict si liang jun hong go unplug my internet cable.wth.then aft school pei Char go to JE popular look for stars and jar.then JP.bought bubble tea.the went to mini toons and the popular there.joked ard abt the big big big yellow tube of acrylic lols.then roamed ard JP..and went home.wth the bus ride took a damn long time sia.then on the bus ride home,i missed my stop!i was reading magic study.had to walk back wth.zzzzz.veh sian now.

2009-08-25T20:45:00.000+08:00

okay.very random so i shall do a quiz.

1) what's the connection between you and the last person that called you?
(William)President of Careforce.

2) do you ever turn your phone off?
When im going to sleep.save energy.

3) what happened at 10am today?
hmm.Ms Goh came in and gave out Physics Ct papers.

4) when did you last cry?
duno leh.very long le.i dunt cry easily.

5) what is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
I DO NOT LIKE PEANUT BUTTER.

6) what do you want in your life right now?
good results.and not to be expelled or retained.

7) do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
just run through the rain.or walk.its nice!

8) what's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
pillows?

9) what bottoms are you wearing now?
FBT shorts.

10) what does the nicest thing in your inbox say?
The doctor is blind(from yunjin!!)LOLs.

11) do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
hmm.i don't know.

12) are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
No.i prefer my own personal belongings.

13) what was the last movie you caught?
Twilight.like a year ago.Last year Dec.

14) what are you proud of?
hmm.i dunt think i have anything to be proud of.i mean,im not really good at anything and i dunt own anything that is pro.

15) what does the oldest text message from your inbox say?
From Mr Cai Yi Fei:Pls hand in ur speech after the national days holidays.Take note that preparatory workshop is no 15 Aug.Mr Cai.

16) what was the last song you sang out loud?
hmm.What Goes Around.Justin Timberlake.

17) do you have any nicks? what are they?
wad are nicks?so chim-.-

18) what does your last msg say?
Yea,later after i finish my hw..

19) what time did you go to bed last night?
10 smth -11 i think.

20) are you currently happy?
err.not extremely happy and not extremely emo either.NEUTRAL.

21) who gives you best advices?
Qin Yin i think.and books.

22) do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
NO?i dunt even eat whipped cream?

23) who did you talk on the phone with last night?
No one.

24) is anything bugging you right now?
yes.Wad to give teachers for teachers day!!!

25) what/who was the last thing that made you laugh?
the jokes from Shabrinah.WL.

26) do you wear toe socks?
Nope.

27) who was the last person you missed a call from?
Chun yi

28) have you ever had your heart broken?
kind of had i think.But i heal fast.or just escape lor.

29) what annoys you most in a person?
Betrayal.and self-centred.

30) do you have a crush on anyone?
how i know.

31) have you ever done cocaine?
NO!Teacher say its very bad.LOLS.

32) what is the colour of your room?
White.wait are u saying the walls or the things in my room?!

33) would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
if its CJE of course.since she wants to kill me so much.

34) do you believe in the saying "talk in cheap"?
sometimes it is.

35) who was the last person to lay in your bed?
MYSELF???

36) who was the last person to hug you?
Noone.its like damn long ago since someone hugged me.

37) did anyone see the last person you kissed?
i have NEVER been kissed before.Peace.

38) do you have a life?
yes.why else would i be here.

39) have you ever thought someone died when they didn't?
no.

40) what is the reason behind your profile song?
i got profile song meh.

41) who was the last person you saw in your dream?
i dunt really remember my dream.i think it was a nightmare or smth lidat.

42) last time you smiled?
err.some seconds ago?

43) have you changed this year?
yea.

44) what are you listening to right now?
DNA-By2.wait just finished.The rose-westlife.

45) are you talking to someone while you're doing this?
verbally no.msning yes

46) do you walk with your eyes open/closed?
Obviously opened.

47) is there a quote you live by?
well,maybe.I live for the sake of living.

48) do you want someone you can't have?
err.N-O-NO.

49) have you ever played an instrument?
tried to yes ba.but really go and learn no.

50) what was the worst idea you had in this week?
reading a book while boarding the bus and missing my stop and having to walk back again.

51) what were you doing last night at 11.00pm?
going to sleep.

52) are you happy with your love life now?
i just fell out of one.

53) what song describes your love life?
hmm.Kiss me thru the phone.Soulja boys.

54) do the person you like know it?
guess so.he introduced it to me.

55) who always makes you laugh?
different ppl.ppl with a good sense of humour normally

56) do you speak another language other than english?
duh.mandarin.

57) are you blonde?
No.im nt an american.

58) what's your middle name?
Don't have.im nt an american.

59) what are you doing tmr?
finishing up my homeworks and revising for EOYs.

60) what do you think you are like?
fun?and quite okay with ppl if the person knows me well.i definitely do not think im pretty.DUH.

61) who do you choose to die with?
nt like i got any choice to choose right.

62) where have you been today?
School.and JP.and JE Popular.

63) what game do you play often?
hmm.kinda dunt have time to le.and even if i want mum wunt let me.

64) who are you missing now?
Not like i have anybody to miss.

65) if you were to choose between friends and love?
Friends.Love can be nice but it can be torturous too.

66) what are you doing now?
msning with weeleong,blogging

67) which primary school are you from?
EPS.Evergreen Primary School.

68) name 3 colours you like.
Red White Black!!!

69) what emotion do you like to show?
emotionless.

70) what is life to you?
life lor.then wad else can it be.

71) if you have something troubling you, what would you do?
sometimes i say,sometimes just keep it within my heart lor.depends on wad it is.

72) who did you last chat with on msn today?
WEELEONG!!

73) who do you admire most?
L.J.smith,Marie V.Synder!their books are fanta-bulous!

74) which month are you born in?
July

75) how are you feeling right now?
duno wad to feel.

76) what is the time now?
9.42pm.

77) where are you now?
at home la.duh.

78) what colour did you use to dye your hair?
never dyed hair before.so artificial.and i like my hair colour.

79) why are you doing this test?
for fun.cuz im random.

80) what do you do when you're moody?
listen to songs,chat to someone.

81) at which age do you wish to get married?
before 30.

82) who is more important to you? boyfriend or friends?
friends.i dunt have a boyfriend anyway.

83) do you think you have enough confidence?
if im prepared yes.

84) who is the one you trust the most?
i dunt know who to trust yet.Qinyin ba i think.

85) do you believe in seeing a rainbow after rain?
I always dunt get to see one.forget it la.zzz.

86) if you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
let myself have an enriching life.

87) what is your goal for this year?
L1R5 to be not over 12.

88) do you believe in eternity love?
no.unless theres someone to make me believe that.

89) what feeling do you love most?
then feeling of freedom.to be like the wind.

90) do you believe it's global warming now?
DUH.geography textbook got say wad.

91) what feeling do you hate the most?
betrayal and rejection and the feeling of being dumped.

92) do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yea.Friendships are fragile.

93) do you believe in God?
not really.sometimes it helps sometimes it doesnt.

94) who cares for you the most?
duno.

95) what do you think is the most important thing in your life?
the way i live my life.wads the point of living when u dunt know what u r living for and why u r living?

96) what would you bring when you fight?
i'll just be dead.most likely.i duno how to fight.

97) what have you regretted doing in your whole life?
being a "friend" of CJE.

98) how do you feel that no one ever cares for you anymore?
i have that feeling before.want to die,very sad ,emo lor.

99) what would you do if your stead two-timed you?
I WILL SLAP HIM ON THE FACE AND BREAK UP IMMEDIATELY.then i go somewhere private and quiet and cry to my heart's contents.

2009-08-24T22:18:00.000+08:00

so.just came back from tuition.lols.shall talk abt school.same thing.in the morning,then today Yi hsiu had her last day in Nan hua.they had the celebrations,but din really join la.and din eat the cake.wan to lose some fats.must learn to reject le.else i'll become fatter.then lessons.had cramps in the middle of Chem.what the hell.its like killing me liao la.then hoped for the chem lesson to quickly end.sianz
.aft sch went to IMM giant with qinyin go buy her camping materialz.find so long.cnt find 1 CAN OPENER.and blue track pants were out.bought some things to eat,then went to macs.legs breaking le.then went to green adventure @westmall.bought the things.then went back home.then slept for a short while,dinner and went to tuition.mr imran was teaching chem,then me and shabrinah were like testing each other abt qian bian tis.lols.then the 2 guys weixin and qirong beside us were like keep on looking at us.lols.gl.then after that they asked me go ask guan yi and say hi,then look at her teeth.meanies.then after that i ask weixin wad school he said WRSS,qirong act shuai say he from ESS,act cute ah.then CCA.weixin in softball?!i was like softball for guys de meh?!then he said yes,then i okay lor,win liao lor.qirong was in table tennis.then after the tuition when i was about to go back,they say "oi wait,we got smth to say to u"then i stopped,then they nvr say.then i walked on then they tell me stop again.ZZZZz.waste my time.then ask me wads my name,wth.then ask me wad sch i from i said NHHS,they duno wad sch is that?!din bother to tell them.the when i was abt to go home,someone called JIANLE!then i turned around,they called me.IRRITATING sia!!!!why got this type of ppl de?!zzzz.came back from tuition,and came online..nvr do homework.BAD GIRL.zzzz

2009-08-23T22:03:00.001+08:00

yeah.just finished the attendance list for careforce camp.i was like doing the whole thing by microsoft word.then found out that i could delete the other infos from the excel thingy.stupid.today woke up damn late.hey its a sunday.was planning to do geography .but din feel like it.then went out to eat lunch.then went back home.sis got PSLE.then at night mum dad bro and sis 2 went to second aunt there.me and sis1 stay at home.cuz she got PSLE.ate instant noodles for dinner.so fun.watched an eng show called duno-wad while eating yays.then went online to do the attendance list again.zzzz.so sianz.then chatted with weeleong.Qinyin's going crazy abt Naruto.LOLs.mum and dad brought a digital piano.waste money.i could use that money for other things lor.not like we know how to play the piano anyw.and i found some new songs!The Rose by Westlife is very very touching,i mean,it kind of relates to myself la.and the lyrics are meaningful also.best of all,the whole song is nice!then Yellow by Coldpaly also quite okay,DNA by By2 is nice too.I'd Lie and Picture To Burn by Taylor Swift are quite okay,well,i like You're Not Sorrry and Forever and Always and You Belong With Me etc are better i think.Now feel so free.but i REALLY REALLY REALLY NEED to prepare for EOYs le.else i'll die more.zzz.mum nagging.gtgs le.BLOGGER WADS UR PROBLEM!!!!

2009-08-22T19:51:00.000+08:00

okay okay.woke up at like 6.30 in the morning.then went to CCK.took cab from there to Kranji Secondary School.turned out that i was the first there lols.then the ushers brought me to the AVA room lor.felt like an idiot.then i was like half-practising my script,half-watching the ppl prepare the room.then i was like quite familiar with my script so i just keep staring at it.then after that finally begin le,the first one was from Jurong Sec de.Nt bad la.hey its nt easy memorising okayy.but the beginning was quite good la.i was the second one,then was quite confident.i managed to keep eye contact,maintain posture,and din look at the script a lot of times i think.then i think i din get in the finals becos i was rushing throught the english part.time limit.zzz.then after that went to the back of the room.then started chatting with the JSS guy(wee leong).then after that the woodgrove join us .then we were like hey u malaysian ah!i also!hi-5!then the woodgrove one (daniel) bang his hand on the table.and everyone stared at us.damn paiseh sia lols.then the hillgrove gal(kelly) also came.then we were like talking how nervous we were and all.then WAIT WAIT WAIT.cuz got 25 participants.then we exchanged contacts etc..and talked throughout.i think the teacher veh buaysong.then we talked abt GTA,DOTA,etc.haizzz.veh sian.then we were like why nvr give refreshments.so hungry.then recess.15mins.me weeleong yuxuan and kelly went to "explore" the school.lols.din manage to explore much anyw.then went back.talked abt debating and how much more fun it was,as compared to speech lor.then FINALLY!!!last contestant.went down to spIN room.then eat!!!food is so nice..then they entertained us.
LAME JOKE 1:

2 eggs were in a frying pan.
one egg said:hey its hot!
the other egg replied:hahaha a talking egg!
LOLLLS.

LAME JOKE 2:

the egg yolk is white?or the egg yolk are white?

ans:the egg yolk is yellow.

LAME JOKE 3:
wads the colour of spiderman?

ans:White (shi bai de man)

LOLS.then announcement of results.whew i din get into finals.the pro ppl can go chiong.JYJY.thn went to CCK ;library.searched catalogue..then dabao-ed macs,bused home.then went to woodlands regional library..
borrow POISON STUDY,MAGIC STUDY,AND THE STRUGGLE!!!!finally found it.yay.then i went out of the civic centre and donated a 20 cents.have a nice day,he said to me.haha nice person.then when i was going up the stairs to the traffic lights,got one evergreen person came in front of me and said:"u from evergreen primary de right?"then i said:"ya?"then he said:"can help me?"then i said:"i donate le.."then he say:"nvr mind can donate somemore"so i put a 50 cents into it lor.haha.felt nice doing good deeds.then went back home..haha.im getting fat.need go on diet le.aiya who cares.Yihsiu going back to taiwan le.wanted to buy present for her.zzz.veh sian.tml must start revision for eoys le...sianzzz.veh tired.haha.

I AM SINGLE.

2009-08-20T19:54:00.000+08:00

okay.today was a okay day.morning just sat there chit chat wif jinyee william and the usual ppl.then recess went to eat.QY YJ PX said smth abt group,then i duno wad they talking then i say i group member.turns out that it was ***.yea.i think i shldnt like suddenly say smth when i duno wad they topic they r discussing.just listen.listen=silent.yea.then assembly had the student investiture.eeeks.someone looks veh ahem in the careforce tee.and they shldnt button lor.CAREFORCE TEE CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE!!!eeks.the material nt good,the colour nt good,the design also nt good.no offense to the creators/designers.and the councillers are damn smart can.in the blazers and all.GENESIS.then el.guys all tio hair check.lols.then we went back.CJE wrote on the board:Kwan le despogays.What the fuck.then morning during pe played basketball.and i accidentally stepped over a millipede.then CJE say,你看起来evil,身材evil,brain evil.and NJH accused me of wad nvr send the relay to her so she din know gt ncc.wtf.lidat also my fault.AUNTIE WE ARE ACTIVATING THE NEW RELAY DINT U KNOW THAT?EUNICE SAID THAT ON THE LAST MEETING.wtf go die la.then el had the paper bk.16/30.oh yah geog 11.5/30.chem is 13/25.hey at least i passed.then lunch went to find the ppl william asked me to.he say wad mdm teo say i nvr do anything.wth.i want to be in EXCO next year.that day william scolded me for my attire .then i tucked in liao leh.making a great revolution of my life.in the morning shiyuan asked me whether tml wan play bball with them.i said i got comp.cuz need memorise all those stuff for speech.anyw i also duwan extra la.not like i cant sense that lor.then QY YJ veh nice.cuz i wanted to hand the form to madame,then she counselling.then we waited for her outside.then she veh long nvr come out.so we waited.then i had to go music,so they helped me pass the form since they said they nxt period elit.no teacher,so nvm lor.then music.fat yeo need do duno wad thing,so no music.tried to memorise the script in class.but din really work la.then physics.light.i think ms goh was a bit irritated with me.cuz i kept asking a lot of questions.then ncc.was the IC.quite easy la.had rifle drills first.then drills.then 10 minutes pt.then parade.then ma'am corrine bought loads of sweets for us.cuz its her bdae.then we were like ma'am corrine, 祝你十七岁大寿！lols.then nc was quite okay la.haven go for quite a long time le.7 ppl only.so pathetic sia.then when we were chionging to the behind classrm block then someone dropped beret then i was like "OMIGOSH WHO DROP DE?!!"then abit loud la.then after nc dad fetch me.veh sian and tired.walao eh.i hate my sis can.snooping around here and there.wads wrong wif her?!i just went to do the dishes then she come look at my blog.wth.noone invite her la disgusting person.EXTRA.sianz.i hope i can pass more tests and get into finals for the billngual speech competition.HOPE.

2009-08-19T19:25:00.000+08:00

Last day of common test.yay.went quite well with the chem and physics paper.i nvr study physics lor.then lessons were okay.sat got billingual comp.tml got ncc.i shall be nice and nt pon.sian.kena see suelynn.zzz.today was quite a nice day.qy had the dry revolver thing so i went bk myself.saw Zen Tay.then went to the bball court opp the school.but courts full. and shiyuan and cassandra and weixin feel like im veh extra.and especially shiyuan lor.she say i veh extra.walao.i wan buy bball!and i wan go play at the bball court opp my hse!but veh weird.zzz.gone case liao la.oni go grandmothers' house then can play...zzz.sian.today is a sian day.im nt even prepared for the comp.and,I AM HAVING A SORE THROAT!!!!wth.its SPEECH comp.and im having a sore throat.NICE.

i feel like a faker a liar.
wads the problem with me?!!

2009-08-17T00:04:00.000+08:00

okay.its 12.04.sice thers still a bit of time left before i go sleep i shall blog a bit.just finished the script.very slow in typing cl.but i think its quite okay.need teacher edit.hope i'll do well for the billingual competition!after all,i havent get my first trophy or medal in my years in nan hua yet...and the workshop was quite fun also.my group had a maris stella guy,hci guy,grey shirt guy,jiaxuan from kranji and me and another guy.then got one topic was "should teenagers be allowed to date?".then a lot of us duno wad to write cos its very very contradictive if we write no,but also very wrong if we write yes.so we decided to go against our feelings and write no...and they chose me to repreent the group.and i talked like shit la!was like babbling cuz i din know wad to say.the script damn short.and then got receive prize.yay.a kit kat and a notebook.the first came from st nics.they pro sch.then i was the first to reach Kranji then the girl at the registration counter saw me and said:i presume u are from nan hua,judging from ur plaits?"then i said yea,she asked me if i knew cheng yee.heard of her,yes.then after that had the warming up games,then we were like introducing while signing the alot of boxes form and u had to get ppl to sign if it was common.then got one girl said im ____from ____school then i said im jianle and she said,from nan hua one right?two plaits.i was like ya...din know nan hua had such a popular reputation for our plaits lol

2009-08-16T19:42:00.000+08:00

ZZZZZZZ.what the hell.now the internet also got problem.the internet explorer icon and list suddenly disappear.what the hell.im supposed to be typing the script but without the internet i cnt type!!!!for the billingual comp on this sat.scary sia.am i an IT noob?yes i think i am.what the hell.right from the start my fb got prob le.then followed by msn.then blogger.then hotmail.now my com itself.what the hell la.anyw i just finished a very good book named Nightworld.its damn nice!!!common test hurry up go away.i want to read more books.what the hell.maths haven studied.and i am supposed to send the script to cai yifei by today.and i haven started.what the hell.

2009-08-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

wah.seriously manz.blogger got very big problems.NUMBER 1:the whole setting duno wad happened go bonkers alr.NUMBER 2:i can only type but cnt change font and colour.NUMBER3:its been lidat for a very long time!!!!.FACEBOOK also got probs.i cnt comment,take quizzes.then the whole setting also veh jumbled.HOTMAIL.sign in le cnt see my messages!!which like totally defeat the purpose of signing in can.MSN.i cannot log in!!!its like for god knows how many days le.tell me wad contact list not ready .go die la.WHAT THE HELL.somemore still got probs like:common tests.billigual competition.plus EOYs coming.and the mountanous pile of homework.plus the fact that i have not been sleeping early and becoming a panda.and i've been eating a lot.plus the *ahem ahem*thing.plus the cheong jia en gang.nvm.i am trying to see the brighter side of things.today reached school veh early.chatted with william and norman and ming jian richie men shuen jin yee ruixuan xinhui lionel.tried to memorise the format for cl writing.the gong han.then morning assembly.then common test.the ci2 hui4 part got at least 2 wrong.then after that was maths.the probs veh challenging sia.used up half of my brain cells liao.then recess ate with yunjin peixing.Qinyin still on mc..then aft recess was el.mr lee neh come.so used the epriod finish up the ke wen's ci2 hui4 .then history.quite interesting when u 've memorised the facts.then lunch.ate again.to destress.then it was art.painted pear.then noridah came to return us our elit test papers.i got 15/15!!!full marks!!!omg i was like jumping alll ard.then aft sch went to find shiyuan they alll.they tell me help chen ru and susan make bkground noise.for their duno wad video.duwan tell me.im a nice person.then aft that went the bball court opp the sch.met shiyuan cassandra weixin there.then the guys came.and started the game.but weixin had to leave early cuz of her mother.zzz.i've had that kind of probs b4.anyw.CJE and gang shouted smth but i acted as if i nvr hear.heck care them la.act cute kias.then left me shiyuan cassandra and the guys.played somemore lols.was very fun.yay.shot in a lot of goals.and got to know a guy called jiaming.If i nvr remember wrongly.and the balll naikang.they all taller than me lor.what the.then went bk home.eat more food.then sleep.*piggy.then woke up had dinner then went for tuition.2 guys joined the class.Wong,as usual was talking to the wall.so we kinda jus copy copy copy.no use de lor.then he ask me duno wad question that i totally duno.then he say "why u duno???"cuz he veh frustrated.then i said if i knew i dunt have to go tuition liao lor.he speechless.:D.then capped earphones for the whole class.crysatl w and crystal l also.and jiatong.lols.then walked back home.tml still have the workshop for the billigual thingy.at kranji sec.wif mr ach and 2 sec 3 guys.im aiming for a champion.or at least a bronze la.zzz.veh fed-up with the internet le.cant msn.sian.hope qy get well soon.zzzzzz.Life is so boring.

2009-08-13T18:44:00.000+08:00

wah.another prob wif blogger again.anyw.supposed to be revising for hcl.lessons were blah.and music i was damn pissed off.what the hell la.aft school played basketball wif cassandra and weixin and shiyuan.and some guys from 103 and 105.yay.de-stress.aiya.life veh sian la.

2009-08-11T20:29:00.000+08:00

zzzz.tried mengyeow's way but it doesn't work.zzzz.studying for history.even msn dun like me liao.say wad contact list not ready,cnt sign in wadeva crap.fed-up liao.blogger also.facebook also.the oni thing that dunt have any probs is twitter.:D.zzzz.fan sis my marks deducted by half liao la.sian.hcl cnt fall sia.zzzz.sian.no colour is boring.went to jrl wif qinyin peixing aft school.drank bubbble tea while studying for history.which din really work.zzzz.needa go study le.flung geog liao.

2009-08-11T13:27:00.002+08:00

FAILED 2.GOING TO FAIL ANOTHER.wow.

i have flung my geog.first thing in the morning.COMMON TEST.i was like doing doing doing then eh?behind still have ah?Then i CHIONGED CHIONGED CHIONGEd.but still cnt.last page empty.FAIL.then aft that physics.thought i can make it.then shit so many questions duno how to do.i never bring calculator .BEST.what the hell.then after that recess.qinyin and yunjin and peixin keep talking abt Naruto.which im like ????.cos i nvr watch anime.was damn hungry.then aft that was maths.okay,i kinda got the ratio thingy abit clear,but still veh confused.zzz.then HCL.Fan sis.still got 5 and a half to be done.can go commit suicide liao.tml still got history.which apparently,i haven even touched the textbook yet.then lunch.Naruto again.even though i have to admit that some of the anime characters were quite handsome.but aft all,they're still anime.zzzz.speaking of handsome.zzzzzz.forget it.dunt feel like talking abt that.Then aft lunch.is now lor.i blogging here.cos at home mum duwan let me blog.the bad thing is,school dun have msn and facebook.wait .i go check if got twitter.its fun once u get the hang of it.zzzz.so many things happened recently even though its only like 2 months and a few days.felt like a year.haizzz.i am getting more and more bored by life.nothing interest me.especially studies.and im like still dangling in the air.zzz.why cant u just let me fall down and hurt.zzzz.why am i talking abt this again?!!!!shit.anyw.this month alot of ppl bdae.mum bdae same as singapore.eh.just now like a lot of things i wanted to blog.now suddenly mind block duno what to write liao.haizzzz.i want to learn drumming!!!its like so damn cool la.not very interseted in electric guitar.but thats an impossible dream.ppl like me?should just go and study.Failure in everything la.I want play bball buden noone can play.cos i dunt really know the guys from my neighbourhood and the bball court always booked by the RC.and there a lot of other guys.which i duno.so its like kinda weird if i go there.and im also nt very good at it la.zzzz.nvm.go grandma's house play.got cousins.bball pros.eh.no link liao.sian.zzzz.haiyo why my life always like that de?!!!at first veh smooth,veh fun,things going fine,then suddenly KABOOM!everything turned the other way.zzzz.feel like screaming.tearing inside lor.but the good thing is that inside tear le.then after that cnt tear liao.:Dso maybe that time i'll be stronger. yea.zzzz.i think i very pathetic sia.soemtimes im like blur then duno why someone starts to ignore me and be veh cold,or sometimes come slap me in the face.and the best thing is ,I DUNO WAD EXACTLY HAPPENED!!!!and its like nt my fault la.wth.eveything going against me.

2009-08-11T13:26:00.001+08:00

wow!!!!hey in school com the blogger's finally back to normal.means there must be something wrong with my com.zzzz.next period elit.

2009-08-09T10:49:00.000+08:00

eeks.Theres still something wrong wif blogger?!!!!fb also got prob.blogger also have.zzz.sian.i should be mugging for tests here.slackerr.zzz.

2009-08-07T18:32:00.000+08:00

MISCONCEPTIONS

getting along fine with guys DOES NOT EQUALS to flirting.
simple concept u also dunt understand.
pleeez man,whos the one flirting here.

2009-08-07T18:23:00.000+08:00

NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATION

today is the celebration.lols.went to hall at 7 am.then set up etc.then went down and up again.then the sec 1s came.pulled a lot of juniors to our stalls.but apparently they din understand the sec 2 projs so it was like no use lor.then aft that got 1 band member played piano.i think it was for the visitor.then aft that went down parade square.prize giving then sing song.char was like _____.its not like i duno its choir and LGK singing la.pls.then kyler they all were like high.we got consolation prize for PW.got marks and spencer's chocolate and candies.the sweet veh big.put into the mouth cnt talk le.im like sucking on one now.then aft that we were dismissed.went to take down the posters etc.then took mrt hme wif charmaine.today is Evergreen Primary School 10th anniversary.cnt go.cos later got tuition.zzzz.sian why they put it on these kind of days.1 year 365 days must put today.=.=today was okay la.just chatted wif qinyin just now.and i saw ___ today!=]although i din really understand,but im still kind of happy that i saw him.okay.later go tuition shall slack wif jiatong.lols.now checking out sonme things.:Dshall be guai and study for common test.

eeks wads wrong wif blogger.i cant change the colour!

2009-08-06T21:57:00.000+08:00

okay.i am having the prob wif blogger now.should nt have spoke so soon.zzz.today was the exhibition galore.went to the hall at 7 am,then ms joy koh gave us velcro strips to stick the boards on the exhibition boards.then we just stick them there lor.then just go the history booth.theres a privelege being the oni sec 2 history class of mrs chng.she specially go print the photos of the japanese thingy to let us put on the board sia.so nice.then we started cleaning the things and placing them nicely.our board nt bad la.then pon-ed pc pe geog eng all the way till phys.shuang.then after the history booth went to the pw.took the laptop from LGK ,then joy koh passed one to us-.-then we pangseh-ed mr liu's laptop.anyw.alot of ppl came.and jessie lim came too.she stood there for like 12 mins.then we explained to her...blah and blah.then we went for the Australian maths comp.the cher damn guailan la.then after that went bk the hall.sianz.walked ard wif qinyin yunjin.then dad come pick me up.now got a movie on channnel 5!so nice!ok gtg le.veh tired.

2009-08-04T08:35:00.002+08:00

SO BUSY.

haven been posting.too busy.sutdy sutdy study.stress stress stress.later gopt physics test and i am still blogging here .tsk tsk tsk.but who cares la.i veh long time nvr blog liao.must ensure that blog survives=].anyway.alot happened.almost forgot.now the only things on my minds are common tests and EOY.need start studying le.and the Project Work also.other groups finished le we still there chionging.haizzzz.and the mdm Shima still haven return me my LKH books yet !!!and i still wanna read Destiny's cries,To forget you and the new book thats coming out!!!shall go buy again...then will have a collection.Yay.and i want read The captive part 1 and part 2 also!!!and the poison study series.and the nightworld series which both qinyin and peixing said was better than twilight.shall go read to find out.but the problem is ,i still cant find the books in the library,and theres the freaking common tests and EOYs coming out...sianzzzz.need start studying hard now le.at home also cnt go online.mum nag nag nag.but tuition was quite okay.Shabrina quitted maths.she say veh nonsense cos all of us were obviously slacking and the teacher was talking to the walls.and its damn cold.zzzz.ICT ending le.gtg.shall blog more if i have the time.

2009-07-29T22:48:00.000+08:00

THE GREAT ESCAPE.
boys like girls.

2009-07-29T22:36:00.002+08:00

today is a nice day.so nice.geog during test got mind block.last question maybe get 1 mark?then el was okay.Mr Ho leaving le.then op mdm tan talked abt chem.haiyoooozzzz .why must teacher give so much hw???then recess ate wif qinyin yunjin peixin.then was maths.wksht stare stare stare duno how to do.mind block again.then hcl.i forgot wad we did.then geog.test .zzz.ACC was fun.buden i couldnt cut the stone.correction .carve.then do so long oni finished a line.wth.aft school went to cck lib.finish bbt,then borrowed books.then went home...zzzz.chionging jianbaos.TML GOT NCC!!!zzzz...needa go home late again.but it'll be weird to call eunice and yanlin staffs and sergeants.duno if will suddenly leg cramp anot.hope not.zzzz.veh tired.

forever and always

2009-07-28T17:25:00.002+08:00

there is a big big problem with msn.i cant sign in!!!wth la..saw ren2 yue4 pai2 2 times today.yea.just now when i posted was PW..quite okay la.got to surf net after we finished the reflection thingy.then mr liu was like looking at all our com on the teacher's com..then they watched the video on laysiew com then cnt stop laughing lol..elit got 17 marks then minused 1 mark.wtf.then after school went home with qinyin shichan..laughed a lot when we were like playing at the playground...veh long nvr play le haha...we look so funny lor.then bused home..we like fooling around in the bus also...laugh laugh laugh..then Wanying got tell me that i was in the netball inter-class yay.last year wanted to join buden dun have chance.this year finally got le...
zzz got loads of hw today..shall go sleep first=]

Were you just kidding cuz it seems to me?
this thing is breaking down we almost never speak
i don't feel welcome anymore
what happened baby please tell me
'cause one second it was perfect
now you're halfway out the door...

2009-07-28T13:43:00.002+08:00

okay..there dunt seem to be a problem with my blogger thingy.i think i also too lag la.a lot of things happened this week.Project work.tests.conflicts.and the you-know-what.arrangements of computers in house rearranged le.so now my com is kinda like public.which is kinda not good.cos mum will see everything.i like wireless better.last week.even more things happened.actually,they are the start of the things that happened during this week.which is like so damn suay.the project work thingy screwed up.cuz i chionged everything during the almost last day meaning thurs i think.at ho,e.printed everything except for the research which charmaine's mum printed.then edited everything.then put all of them into a file.speaking of the file,i bought it like damn late cuz i ju8st realized that i had to store the docs in a file and we dunt have one.so i ran opposite and bought 3 black ring files.the auntie was like going to close shop le then i chionged in she xia4 dao4.then chionged back and rushed everything.by the time i got everything of the paperwork done,it was 3.Yes.3AM in the MORNING.when everybody was like sleeping i was doing the projetc.Woke up at 5.30.went to school.2 HRS to sleep only sia.become panda le.then the next day they tell me haven finish proj,tell me do storyboard and treatment.then i do a bit cnt take it liao.After school they still wan stay back.then Charmaine like scolded me lots of vulgarities on sms and blog and on the phone.i heck care la.i got a tuition to chiong to,and im sick and tired of doing the project with them who just din think.i chionged till 3 am in the morning and yet i get treated like this.one word.SUAY.eh pls la.i could easily just leave the proj there.i do finish le u all din even think of the work i do and how tired i was.it was a miracle i din faint can.was like sleeping through all the classes but trying to stay up.ltr cher scold i die.they scold me i also cnt defend le.no energy.i was mentally and physically tired.Then still got a lot of things la,like the ahem ahem and other issues like i cant remember and schoolwork etc...aiya cant talk le.blog at home.

when are u going to reply me??? i miss you a lot..